You only love me for my mind!

It seems that more and more the theme of these blogs is budget - money is tight, business is fast, then slow - I get excited about things, then torn down by others - heck even just brought down by others in general, life is such a funny thing.

I find more and more people like me for my mind, and while the subject alone pokes fun at the idea of liking someone for their body vs. who they are - for me it’s a similar situation. In my lowly 27 years on this planet, I have learned a lot of things, I just have a mind that is like a sponge, and apparently it’s not all that uncommon as my niece shares a similar ability, she was quoting a movie this weekend, and when asked by how many times she had seen the movie she said “Once” lol - my mind is just like that, I can retain strange and sometimes useless bits of info, but at the same time know right where to go for information, or how to do a particular task - and thus folks rely on me since I think outside the box 99% of the time, but it’s also my curse as that part of my brain rarely shuts down.

I dunno, lately I have more folks relying on me - needing me to complete a task, and of course, in the end I am no closer to paying off bills, expanding the budget to get the apartment, I dunno - it’s the never-ending conflict in me, that strange middle ground in life of being “helpful” or being paid for a “job” and yet, when it comes down to it, folks would rather me simply be helpful and save their butt than pay me a wage - and I am not saying that there are not folks out there who are like helpfulness, several of my friends would give me the shirt off their backs if I was truly in need - but sadly as one friend and my father both put it “While honor is given, it is not always returned” - and that is so true - I can be honorable, I can go above and beyond to help someone, but that doesn’t mean that they’ll instantly return the favor.

Life is a funny thing - amazing how in a single day one can be up, can be doing great, then it all just slowly goes down-hill - I have seriously looked around at jobs, and I found one that I could probably handle, and it’d be a change of location, of course it’d mean moving about 20 minutes outside of Beverly Hills, but part of me is considering it - maybe break the cycles of some folks here who use and abuse this ol brain for their gain, but then when it comes to returning the favor - or even yet, bringing me on even part time, it’s not possible.

Who knows, it’s been a long day, a nice blend of good, a bit of bad, some fun chatting about business, and some time playing Halo 3, but I’ve officially been up for too many hours, maybe I just need a nap, or maybe it’s time I had a real wake-up call. Ah life. Night.