Head Above Water

As much as I’d love to get the MH Bundle right away, it appears I am waiting a while this year, not by choice, but due to the fact that I am playing the “Got No Money” game - things are just piling up, and I am trying to get things done as quick as possible, trying to get jobs to be done, and get paid.

I really just want to take a nap today, and hope to wake up and things be better off, over $1200 that is on “hold” as folks scramble to get me money, some faster than others - but everyone’s got the same after-holiday stories, stolen cards, non-payment, etc. some folks I honestly think are just dragging their feet to show they are “in-charge” with me, and honestly, I think I am done playing this power struggle games, and getting fed up with being a door mat for folks, while as usual I get that “We’d hire you in a minute” comments from them, I get the suddenly empty wallet when it comes to paying me. *shrug*

I dunno, just really needed to vent a bit, and while I should be working on projects, I think I am going to work on a personal set of stuff, just need to separate myself from this business crap for a while today, I had a great lunch with Dan, fun playing some Halo3 with Scott last night, and while I know that while this junk is all going down, that I am blessed more than I truly deserve, just sucks when folks who claim to hold my friendship above all else, and value my work for their company are the ones who are giving me the shovels of crap on my head, it just really bugs me, and I need to step back and breathe.

So keep me in your prayers, a lot going on this week, server upgrades for Apache & PHP again, working on server migrations, and the usual song as of late, finances are tight. Thanks to everyone who checks in on me on IM from time to time, I appreciate it - I know things are going to level out soon, but just wish I was not in this place with some of this junk to begin with, but maybe some changes here soon will fix that all up. Time will tell. Have a good Fake Friday folks. Relax it up for me.