Oh, I’m Wild… Stop laughing!

I really don’t know how I got to the a-typical boring guy level of things I have lived a pretty wild bit now and again - I mean how many people have been investigated by the FBI twice, and the Canadian mounties? (Okay it wasn’t the mounties, but it sounds cooler than the Canadian version of the FBI)

A lot lately people keep telling me that I am far too nice - when did becoming nice almost become a put down? LoL I love the folks who tell me these things, tonight it was my little sister, she said it in reference to something that happened to me a while back, and I jokingly said I was going to hire her to come do collections for me! She’d have me tons of owed money ASAP.

Honestly I do see it sometimes that I let things go that I should be upset about, but I suppose it is true that nice guy’s finish last - and sometimes as of late aside from heat stroke, flu, and bordum @ work, I do feel like I am finishing last. My vision of where I would be by now is a lot different than how it turned out - I am not a chef cooking for people, I don’t have 2 kids and a beautiful wife, no 3 bedroom house, but instead - I have a lot of things folks don’t have - and more and more I see that even in my every day interaction with folks at work.

My office has some folks that look at life a lot different than I do, they see the negative and hang on to it, “being nice” isn’t something they practice on a regular basis - I mean the fact that I keep a stash of goodies that I hand out for free still to this day boggles the minds of folks there - both young and old. I mean who would go out, buy some candy bars, and some snack cakes and hand them out for free? I mean come on what’s the catch?

I dunno, this past 2 years a lot of learning has gone down for me, and adding this 9-to-5 style job is a big change for me, no more running out on a Friday to Kosmos with Matt for 2-3 hours to chat, no more snagging lunch for Rosie and running it over to her at B&N, no helping friends decipher taxes and applications for loans, granted I still get to help folks at work, even got to help a old friend today, and she offered to take me to lunch as a thanks - I dunno, things like today where I should be billing $75 just for doing something, I am going to let it fall by the wayside.

Grace. As Google defines it:

“a disposition to kindness and compassion”

I have always been a big supporter that if grace is given to you, if that kindness and compassion is shared - you should share it in return, because grace is something you don’t deserve - it’s a gift. A gift which I have received in my life time and time again - so who am I not to extend it to others?

I mean if I have no other role in life than to spread a little bit of grace, compassion, and kindness - that seems like a noble enough of a life - may not be the vision you come up with a kid of being a fireman, of being the president of the USA, but I think for this day in age - it is something needed.

My life is going to be taking some changes soon, probably a new place to live, changes in how I eat, exercise, interact, etc. and thru it all I pray I don’t loose that sense of grace - as even when folks are short with me, or fall short of what I expected from them, grace can still be given, that gift that costs nothing but issues such a rich reward to another - the best gift one can give and the same for someone who receives it.

Anywhoo - that’s my bit for now - going to run the budget numbers again, and pray about ditching work tomorrow to rest up for Friday’s big inventory day - but knowing me I’ll probably just end up going and be grumpy on Friday from lack of sleep and even more fun heatstroke Keep me in your thoughts and prayers - hopefully going into July some things things will be underway. Night folks.