morning … well its 1:22am here as I am posting this just some thoughts I figured I would pen down on whats been on my mind.

Over the last 2 days I spent a lot of time outside, so much I got sunburnt (yay!) but it really was a lot of fun, digging up a tree, replanting it in the backyard – hanging with friends at the office, my house, and dan’s house a very fun weekend. Just kind of made all the work I do seem sort of ‘in the way’ but I suppose thats because for the last 2+ years now my work is my life, but I think thats going to change, or rather I’d like it to change. Finances allowing I think I would like to hire someone or merge with someone in the hosting world and have someone who could pick up the slack if needs be.

no set in stone plans yet, actually have one guy lined up for help in doing tech support but sadly most of the tech support things coming through are all things which require server access and working knowledge of the inner workings of cPanel and Ensim to make things go smoothly – systems are setup that friendly just yet.. but geeze I would love to step away for a week – go off blow a wad of cash, maybe go outta town, stay at a hotel, visit family in souther cali (my aunt karal) and maybe go up north a bit and visit my buddy adam or something – just do something out of the norm from the day to day tasks:

1) Goto Sleep (yes thats the start of the day aka 6am)
2) Wake up.
3) Shower.
4) Check email
5) Check Servers
6) Reply to emails.
7) Code.
Rinse, and repeat.

Not an exciting day but I have begun to line out 5-11PM as more of a ‘personal’ time, basically gaming, relaxing, doing things around the house etc. ME time. I love my work – dont get me wrong, I enjoy helping people and I enjoy doing what I do, but at some level as my buddy Matthis pointed out in a comment a while back I MUST take time for me – so if possible I hope to take a week off sometime this year, step away and while gone maybe check email 3 times, and personal email all the time but get some travel time in, maybe cruise up to Frisco or down to LA for some tech shopping and visiting a Mac store but just something that I’d never do!

Who knows – but its just been a weekend when I look at some of the projects I have / sites I have a hand in I say “Why?!” – by no means to bag on these projects or sites but I just look at things and see their direction and truly wonder “Is that worth my time?” – then there is the spiritual aspect of it all, where does God want me serving – this church I am at currently? or something closer to home with Mom? Not sure. Just a lot on my brain and a lot to consider as I wrap up some projects and my responsiblities return to a more calm normal pace I am pondering what to keep, what goes, etc. I know one thing I definately need to wrap up this weekend is HappyPalm – have 5 pending posts of some reviews, and such which just need some screen shots added and some links made.

Ah the joy which is my life. Well sleep becomes me.