5am, can’t sleep, pain from my head to my neck/shoulders – so I am laying here on my bed, pondering work – lately it seems to be a mad house, lots of little things, a few select big things, and another pile of small things waiting in the wings 
Meetings this week, line-ups for more programming / consulting gigs, which is nice, some extra cash helps pay off business expenses living on the business credit card – be happy to have it cleared off, but it’s times like this when things get busy busy busy that I have mixed feelings about self employment – don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it – but there are times I’d love to be working for a boss, set hours, overtime, a team working with me, and the steady paycheck – I remember the days – made some good money back working for other people – highschool, web firm.
Don’t get me wrong, private consulting can be very profitable, challenging, fun, exciting, etc. etc. – but once and a while lately, I dont think I’d mind someone offering me 40-60k a year… but when I think about it, I kind of dread a few things like droping clients with another company/person who may not always be in their best inrests, customers I have a relationship with who trust me and what I know how to do – would hate to send them off to find other people to do the work I do for them currently – It’s the thing I have noticed about myself lately – I’m a tad posessive and protective – guess the ol Camp Cousiler nickname fits, "The Bear" 
But its 5:30am, the rooster next door is chiming the aproaching sun, and thus I imagine my time to sleep for a bit, maybe 4-5 hours, then back to it – I seriously need to get the sites in gear, have a few ideas in mind for promotion, need to get the ball rolling, I have some upcoming expenses on my mind, more on that later – but needless to say, I need to bring the monthly revenues up a bit. Night Folks.
