14th times the charm?

Well I have come to this screen, left, came back, wrote something, then left again, so much on my mind but yet can’t seem to get things to level out in the ol brain - I have gotten most of the work stuff into to-do’s on my project management, lot of server work, lot of updates to do - and dealing with the ocasional random question from CMC about how I did XYZ - but work is only half the stuff on the brain, still trying to find the balance of Work/Personal - and failing miserably - mainly because I am desiring the personal end more and more lately (avoiding work? me? never!)
Had to deal with the ocasional server blip with clients, outdated scripts once again the culprits, thankfully no server damage beyond that client’s website, in which things are removed entirely, and the client re-sets things up, but such is the way of the hosting craziness - but doing some more in-depth updates, getting Titus finished up hopefully later today - titus will allow me to give some customers higher bandwidth, higher space limits, but a touch less performance at the same time, but for folks needing sheer storage, and bandwidth this should be more than fine.

In the realm of trying to figure it all out my bible time has been reading Esther and Ruth - and in the whole “life application” of both books, you have Esther who is where she would rather not be, but is purposefully put there to help her people in time of need, and by her actions her people are saved, and avegened - then you have Ruth who left her homeland to stay with her mother-in-law till the bitter end if needs be, but in turn was redeemed by Boaz who made sure she and her mother-in-law were taken care of, and eventually married Ruth and carried on the family name - so how does that apply to me? Still working on that entirely, but I have been contemplating my business as of late in reflection of having a personal life, but that could easily be where I tie in Esther, while here and now hosting feels like its holding me back from having a life, maybe this is where I should be and something is coming that my hosting will empower? One possiblitiy, as for the Ruth end, I think it may go back to my road-trip, a journey of my own to the ends of the earth so to speak, to get out there, and escape from the place in which I am comfortable in? Both just prayerful ideas.

But life moves forward, good days and bad, some where the brain is in overdrive, or nights like tonight where I am simply still awake and the brain is too exhausted to even overthink (always good) but even then with the overthinking I have had a decent week, took a drive, still have pictures to post, nothing exciting, I really need to master low-light stuff - and get my breathing down for holding the camera still during photos, Rosie shared good news with me that her older sister is expecting! So good news there, Jake got his couch in, and TV stand, so soon enough the parties can begin at his place Cousin Sarah is coming into town, I have Chicken Little saved up here for her, and then Saturday lunch with Rosie and watching X3 (even though me and Rosie have both seen X3 we love sarah enough to go again) - so good things, amougst the bad, God is Good.

But tomorrow brings server work galore, I want to try and make sure things are setup, upgrade titus’s drive and bandwidth - and start maybe moving some folks to it by Monday, but a lot of tiny things like making sure the cron’s for Fantastico are in place for more constant updates as they come in of scripts so clients who install via Fantastico have no excuse but hopefully, prayerfully, it all goes smooth - then next week some billing clean up, and by weeks end of next week, possibly a new design, I need to touch base with designers in the AM one is still working on something, and one I have on my desk is awesome, and good price to boot - so might just go ahead and move forward with that - so busy busy - I seriously need a clone.

Well rambling will now cease, I may goto the gym, as I don’t feel like loading up the bike, but at the same time I may just kick off my shoes and goto bed, time shall tell - I do appriciate the IM’s from folks of hello’s, random tech questions, etc. much appriciated, and I do appriciate the prayers, glad to know folks care, even when my brain is upside down and backwards, but hopefully with more of this stuff done my brain can get over the last bits, durn over-active liver, and over-active brain… wish my body wasn’t so wild and crazy Night folks.