Life is Living

Sometimes the concept of Church bothers Me - growing up in a highly involved church family, I served in church from the time I was old enough to carry the offering plate - range of serving, range of things I did by my choice, and the ocasional I did to stand in the gap, but today I got the call that just really kind of irked me about church.

A pastor who is a friend of the family, more or less told me my idea of learning about God, about sharing, about fellowshiping with people of like faith was more or less silly, he in turn then switched into “pitch” mode, not “pray about it” but - “you know….” telling me that I needed to be at HIS church - don’t get me wrong, I am sure I could find somewhere to serve there, but honestly I enjoy the quiet time in prayer/bible study, the good conversations of faith with Friends, and sharing with folks how God is Good. I realize from what I have heard from other members at his church is he wants me to stand in the gap to take load off him from playing the piano, possibly sing, and re-vamp their computer layout - which is fine, but ask me to help, don’t demand things of me, don’t tell me I MUST come to your church - I don’t mind helping, but I honestly don’t feel any connection there like I have at other churches growing up - so its not a prime choice for a home church.
Life in Christ is being Alive, a new birth, a new life, not shackling yourself to a pew, not sitting in the same butt groove you have made in the pew over the years — Life is about living — I have spent many years sitting in a pew, I loved listening to my Grandfather, My Father, Various other awesome ministers around town, but right now I don’t feel called to become a “MEMBER” anywhere, I am definately going to try to hop around more soon, but just like with my business, I don’t mind doing a task for someone if they ask, but beating around the bush is silly - plain and simple.

For years I haven’t really lived, I sat behind a PC, worked, slept, worked, slept, worked, slept - you get the idea, in the last 2 years God has really helped me with Good Friends, Good Fellowship, and Grace to get past many of my anxieties, many of my holdups, many things which have held me back from Truly living, so who knows, maybe that’s what this road trip is leading up to, maybe I am to travel around, help Churches revamp tech - you just never know! All in God’s Time, while I wish that was sooner sometimes, I can only rely on him for it all, like my relationships both Friendship and Romantic, both Business and Pleasure, everything in HIS time, HIS timetable for my life is the only way to Life, and thus Truly Living.