I need a hug, and a Nap.

Well this week so far has been… well kinda odd. Not necessarily bad, not necessarily good - but sort of that middle ground that well leaves you say “Wha?” - I haven’t been sleeping too much, not that I am busy late night, but I just have stuff griding away in my mind, work, personal, faith, etc. just all there - so I figured write a bit down tonight here in a blog - not EVERYTHING, but at least a little helping of each to simply put down on the virtual paper so to speak, vs. keep in my head.
So let’s start with the thing I have been doing lately: Work. The servers have been performing well enough, but I really want to re-do everything, heck I have done everyone else’s, but for mine, most are pretty older in the sftw. department, and with the new FH on the horizon, I kind of want to go into 2007 with new things like fresh servers, same with TN, just clean slate, stuff migrated, and online - and I am looking at a solution that could do the following:

1. Increase Performance
2. Add Value To All Accounts
3. Simplify Hardware
4. Cut Costs
5. Did I mention Cut Costs?

This is what happens when your mind grinds Every possiblity is considered, and I do mean every - I have been in talks with other companies, I have been researching hardware/software that I have tested over the last 2 years as I have considered new solutions, but tonight I am sitting here about to hit purchase, max out a credit card or two, and simply get it rolling - I just think at some level I need to do something, and get things moving.

Which leads to the next bit, Faith. A lot lately I have gotten the “Good Christian” bit, not saying it’s a bad thing, but apparently I live my life different than a lot of folks, and I get this confused look from people when I am polite, tip a foodservice person, open a door for someone, and do things like Not Drink. Most of my friends drink, and honestly, the nice thing about that (yes I found a positive in someone drinking) - I get to be the driver, I get to cruise around in a Cadillac CTS now and again, now thats some fun raw power but Church is one thing on my mind lately, I see a door that maybe is the one I have been waiting for, its a local church, and there is some spots I could serve, and I think the same for my Dad, I dunno, maybe why my brain is going a bit crazy.

But I have had some nice talks about God lately, and folks are always curious if I don’t drink for a “Spiritual” reason, but honestly, I have no desire to try it, I am crazy enough on my own, as I have seen this last couple weeks socially, I do well @ parties without drinks, I dunno - apparently I’m fun lol. but I had some nice talks with folks about my faith, about some churches lately, I dunno - lot of things on that, I really want to start a Men’s bible study, we talked about it, but never did it, Jake how’s Tuesdays?
Personal. The one thing I tend to avoid real depth on my blog about, but really it comes down to this - my personal life is odd, when it comes to a love of my life, I just have a ton of good friends - I spent the other afternoon hanging out with William playing Lego Star Wars for Xbox at the office, which was fun, and I got a nice break for my brain, but I laugh because I have been told I am dating like 3 different girls, heck people thought Courtney and I were married, but we have just known each other since what, kindergarden? Oh yeah, were nerds, and we know each other’s secrets, and were taking them to the grave.

The bottom line is when it comes to a Mrs. or even a “Chuck’s Girlfriend” - it’ll happen, not sure when, not sure who, but as my MySpace profile says, I hope she’s patient with my craziness, not sleeping, wearing shorts in 20F weather, and odd batch of business / non-business friends - but with that said, its not like I DONT want it to happen, just I need to get some areas in my life in order, but at the same time, that’s never going to all be perfect, but where does a odd Computer Nerd look for girls? Last setup I had, apparently the gal was scared to high-heaven… maybe I should shave, I don’t think a beardish look makes me scary? but maybe it does.

Anywhoo my therapy is done, I am going to go pray over this new server/software configuration, and maybe hit buy and get things rolling, it’d be awesome to get things rolling tonight, clean slate of FH/TN online (clear out a TON of old junk) and put the new FH online - or I’ll put my camera on to charge (Baby Photos Tomorrow!!! New Foster Child!) and hit the hay, but no matter what, I need to clean this room, I just am rarely here anymore, where to put it all…. I need a house of my own - or a dump truck. One of the two.

Night All.