2 Waffles and 2 Enchiladas

Life is funny sometimes, well if one is to be honest, life is plain funny all the time - things and life come and go, the whole song comes to mind “to every season… turn turn turn turn” - so what happens when life goes back-wards, where what you thought was the progress of things, was not the right path, and going back to the start of things, was the real going forward?

Over the last 6 months things have moved forward, then as of today, such as the old office downtown, is no longer - I am taking a truck downtown, to load up a table, some bits of furniture, and pack up - and I find myself back at the office I left to really buckle down and expand my business, and its not a bad thing. The world didn’t end when I stepped back into that building - because honestly, I am surrounded by friends (and Ryan) - I mean having a friend you have known since kindergarten, 2 new friends who are employees of my good friend, and the rest of his crazy staff, its a fun place to be, but at the same time it has it’s downsides, I don’t really have my own “space”.

But life moves forward, it’s funny, I spend so much time focusing on the 3,000 possiblities, and never have a real regret in a choice I have made, because I take one of those 3,000 roads, and I know, it may not end up perfect, but it takes me a step further on the journey - but here - this moment, this day, I am back where I was earlier in the journey, but its a little different, but still full of options.

Often I feel I don’t belong/fit/etc. here in Bakersfield - not really a bad thing, I suppose it’s natural for one to really examine life and step outside of one’s hometown and experience life around and about, but honestly - Bakersfield for the 10,000 faults folks could give me, is home - and that sense of not belonging is apparently only something I feel, more and more I find folks who tell me I was this super popular person in Highschool, I thought I was just the quiet nerd, and was content to my nerdiness and getting the classic response from females of “Your good guy, some girl is going to be very lucky someday!” aka the pat on the back condolence, or also the “hey your not a loser! cheer up!” - ah to be the nice guy.

So tomorrow in life, or today (depending on how you measure time… I just don’t sleep), I move forward with some things, I work on a job, make a living, and possibly move closer to getting a new place this year to call home - I work with companies who may not fully respect me, but know I am going to take care of them even if, and make sure they are online - I get to enjoy the company of friends where I work, and hopefully be a friend in the process not a “boss”, but life is a funny thing, just like the title of  this blog (which is what my total dinner added up to) - life is quite simply that, funny, and if you can’t take a minute to stop and laugh at it, you probably just don’t understand it, because could I mope? could I complain? sure - but that leaves me in a hole, sad, alone, and trapped by regrets, but if you can laugh, and look up, who knows, that next road sign may say “Exit Left” and thats your next turn which may bring you a step closer back where you started, but its the road you were supposed to be on - and this time from that point, take a right vs. a left - who knows, you may fund that path your looking for, may of been there all along.

Night folks.