Morning! As always I find I end up awake at odd hours - never fails, months of a push to normal sleep, ends up with what I am doing now, working on computers, listening to StrongBad Album - a interesting day / evening / week - recently. One thing I have been battling with myself for the past few weeks all comes back to one core issue "Who am I?" - Well the simple answer "Me" As non-descriptive that may be the bottom line is who I am is who I will be, I am a guy who does nice things on a whim - do services for people that I should be charging thousands of dollars for, I tend to worry about others before myself and thus get run down, and sleep patterns all messed up - but there is the balance - work for work vs. work for friends - finding that true line vs. having a grey area, and making friend’s work my friendly fixes, vs. my friend’s work as a JOB.
This week I have seen a lot of things in my life which need some tweaking, schedule is the core of it - making time for things - church, friends, gym, housework, and of course - Work. Lately that has been highly unbalanced and in the end has actually cost me some business, sanity, etc. So I hope to by week ends be back to the gym, as I have gained 10lbs from working late eating junk food, and working mainly on heavy lifting with furniture etc. vs. moving fast on a treadmill, plus with awesome cooler evenings this year, may be time to invest in a new bike and do some above and beyond the gym - ride down at the lake.
I have had some awesome friends through this crazy transition in my brain - me trying to figure things out, people who asked how I was doing, what was up, asking me why I had’nt blog’d lately, nice to know people care - but I also found out in the midst of that some honest feedback about me, I do tend to be rather closed about who I am, but at the same time, there really isn’t much to me - but if for some reason there is something you’ve always wondered about me, feel free to ask.
Lastly, God is good. Been trying to spend more time with him lately, still haven’t really looked for a home church, still doin home bible-study off and on by myself, but I think it’s time to make the plunge, find a home church. My parents would love for so many reasons for me to join their new Church, they have met and I quote ‘cute girls’ that I need to meet lol - Gotta love parents trying to setup their last Single child. Bless their hearts lol - but time will tell where I will end up, I have always gone to church with my family, but maybe it’s time to branch out a bit… who knows!
Anywhoo - back to my project here - still trying to tame linux for my desktop use, still have all major OS’s here though, Sparky & BigBoy (Linux) - Grace (XP Laptop) - ibook (iBook - no clever name… yet) - but I do hope to scale down my other CRT monitor soon to a 19-21inch LCD - want to make Sparky into a Media center and use it as my TV here in the room - all in due time, still need to find a replacement cell phone, Treo600’s are cheap now, but no BT, small screen, if only I had a rich sugar mama
Night all. Thanks for the prayers and checking in on me - I really do appriciate it.
My cell tends to be my only steady link to communication anymore - I still need to move the Vonage line from home to here so it can live in the office, probably upgrade it to a business line, which gets me a free fax # - but my cell has been acting up. Last night after Fathers Day / Mom’s B-Day at the Lake - it said "Insert Sim" - took a while for me to get it back up and running, but kinda odd, plus lately people say it cuts out a lot, and can be really hard to hear me.
I would LOVE to get a Treo 650 - But budget for a few months till I get the laptop cleared off the card, and rebates come in, it is going to be a little tight in the budget for new phones/gadgets - as much as I love my T3 and my V551 - I wouldn’t mind a all-in-one device, it would be nice to have everything in the palm of my hand, and not have to lug around 30 devices, plus it’d be nice for email checking on the road vs. whippin out a laptop just to find out no one emailed me.
What to do, what to do - I am looking for a basic unlocked GSM on eBay right now to if nothing else be on stand-by, I do have my T68i somewhere - probably just end up finding it, tried to sell it, but now they are going for ultra cheap everywhere $25 is the cheapest, and that was for unlocked - what is this world coming to?
Well back to eBay - if anyone knows any rich people who would love to be nice to me, please let me know (or feel free to send a Treo650)
First day this week I almost feel like ‘me’ again - had a lot on my mind, a lot on my plate, and a lot coming up. But this week did have it’s good points, got my mom a fun gift, the home improvement show tool she has been desiring, a Nail Gun - and apparently I picked a ‘awesome one’ it was durable and lightweight which were the two things I was looking for - magnesium body, good pressure (170psi) and well it looked cooler than others, and weighed only 2.1lbs! So it was definately a winner in my book.
Got paid the last of a debt a friend owed me, was in no hurry to have it paid off, but it was nice to finally put in a payment and have the ‘Amount Due:’ read 0.00 - I am sure it was nice for him too - but it did give me $220 extra in the budget this month, which helped pay for Mom’s Bday/Mom’s Day present - since my parents birthdays fall close to the parental holidays (mothers/fathers day) I tend to just combine the two on their birthday - makes for a funner gift
Doing a few project invoices today - gonna get paid a couple bucks by next week I hope - be nice to pad the buget again, and knock down the company card & personal cards a bit, but I also have some bids to write up - doing a wireless network for the gym, going to swing by the quote this afternoon - looks to be under 1k which ain’t bad, but I do need to confirm in the bid my hourly rate, since they did mention they may need assistance in other things as they are shooting for July 11th as their launch date for the new larger facility (definately should be fun) - and I have to get a bid in now that I have the last of the facts for Downhere - backup of 3GB of information added another 3 hours onto the backup process - not bad, but might snag a dual Xeon for them if I get the nod, and maybe shave some time off that vs. mix it into virtual hosters.
So much in my brain lately, so much to do - so little time… back to it!
I think it’s safe to say, my sanity is gone - not that I ever had too much, but just lately things seem piled up, but in reality they are pretty mellow right now, just everything "I" want to get done, are still waiting in the wings, but I suppose that’s a living! I have a lot of invocing to do, a few more projects to sinch up small loose ends, thankfully 2/3 of them all follow the same line of thinking - similar apps, similar code, should hopefully make dev. quicker.
Today’s my mom’s b-day, so it’s off to the lake to BBQ, relax, enjoy the outdoors, and celebrate a late fathers day as well - since mom and dad went to my aunt’s for the weekend for her birthday. So that should be fun, granting I am awake, just been odd hours again, welcome heat of the summer - it is hanging on more and more, plus when your a computer nerd like me, 3 systems running 24/7 in a small room, ya warm up pretty quick!
Life is crazy right now, but who knows, there may be a light at the end of the tunnel - I just hope it’s not a train.
Over the last week I have opened and closed this window to type out a entry, each time either I get distracted, switch to Linux, or close the window since I don’t like what I have written.
So what am I here to say? Well for starters, I am still alive - tired, but alive. Lots to do, but also a lot done - just need to get some invoices out to projects so I can get paid and put some spare change in the bank to do some server switcharoo’s I have been wanting to do.
All in all, its all going well, still some ‘eh’ things right now - but when in life are any of us 100% eh free
Well I am off - going to go into the office today - or so is my plan, hafta finish some work, and I guess email some final questions on project wrap-up to someone since I never saw them online today - gotta love projects!
Sitting here at the office - going over the books, trying to get caught up as I have had myself spread a little thin over the last few months, so I am trying to spend a little quality time going over accounts, catching up with clients, sending out bids on hosting (which I may be to late for, but heck never hurts to try!) - but as I sit here, I really wish I had someone else doing my books lol - and I wish everyone was using Credit Card!
But all in all I suppose it’s going well, working to re-work Wordpress into more of a CMS to manage site’s with - it’s going well, but as with all things lately, just trying to find a happy balance between projects that help me, and those which help clients and help increase sales, as while sales are not lower, they have not really picked up lately - lot of cancelations of people who have been with me for years - just moving on, not to another host, but I am hoping the tweakage of Wordpress will help spruce up the hosting front’s and get some more sign-ups. As FH is a few month’s old on specials, and TN - well, can anyone say 2001?
What a day - a almost normal day. No fever today, was able to goto the office and function well enough. Now to get caught up with other projects as one is wrapping up if not for a pesky HTML dropdown box, I think it’d be ready to go live.
All in all I think life is back up on a onward and upward slope again - gotta love the highs and lows of life sometimes, still considering a nice trip, just need some funds, fuel, mini-cooper But in all seriousness, going to do at least a month sales drive first, then take some time off, go up north, if i get REALLY wild, maybe go forth to Arizona on a test trip to meet my old pal Cory’s lady friend as they are getting married.
Well back to my downtime - watching Mulan Special Edition - gotta love cartoons ;)
As non-descriptive that may be the bottom line is who I am is who I will be, I am a guy who does nice things on a whim - do services for people that I should be charging thousands of dollars for, I tend to worry about others before myself and thus get run down, and sleep patterns all messed up - but there is the balance - work for work vs. work for friends - finding that true line vs. having a grey area, and making friend’s work my friendly fixes, vs. my friend’s work as a JOB.
(or feel free to send a Treo650) 
