Well the day started early today, helped my brother get some finishing touches on the new server here in town - moved 32 accounts from my servers -> there - to that end if it holds up nicely, I may put forth to all “friend” style accounts to chip in towards the purchase of our own little server + software and get all friend accounts moved over, but again, time will tell. But so far so good, more hardening to do later this week, may even have a full-time/part-time job out of it - just a lot to consider.
Pray for Mima, she is in the middle of all the mayhem in Brazil right now, she said the mall near her was torn to shreds by machine gun fire and in some cases as the news reported by explosives - so she and her family can definately use the prayers right now - definately a crazy time there for her and I am sure many other people as they are prisoners in their own homes.
My party with my tax refund lasted all of $1 ($0.97 cents) - so $6 to spare, lol - getting old I guess, just was sooo tired today, and still fighting this lack of drive to do a lot of things, it was the little things today that made me happy, little tasks, and trying to unwind, I just feel wound up lately, but I am sure its due to several big pending things, work, personal, etc. still leaning on getting out of town this weekend, unless some things happen this week, in which case may just take a day trip up there and get fresh air and some photo op’s under the belt - to that end, I need another CF card or xD card - 1GB is just not going to last me
Anywhoo - for those of you keeping me in your prayers, don’t stop, still a lot on my plate, a lot to deal with and figure out, and as Roger pointed out (and many others have) JAHOYFT - and to that end, I am working on it, so pray hard Who knows, maybe its all part of this crazy road my life is on, just need to figure out which way its going - to that end, I see my pillow from the glow of the monitor, so I am going to go and visit it. Night folks.
Well tonight is the night, I am not going to stop till every ounce of this tax refund check is done! The night goes on as long as this check funds things - so mighty tax refund check of $7.00 - party on!
Well another night, another mixed up sleep life - so seems to be the thing lately - but I am surviving for the most part, got the email today I had been waiting for from the client I spoke about a while back being the problem client, and I dunno, just not what I had hoped to recieve, but instead of answering questions, it brought in more - so really considering my continued role there, at some level its just not worth the money, they see me a certain way and I see their choices a certain way, backwards vs. forwards - so going over things here tonight in my head, and praying about it as I go along, while a lot of myself has gone into this site, extras, things I slipped in, they feel I am not following thru with my role in some areas, but at the same time I feel they aren’t directing/organizing things properly - ah the joys of conflict, but I suppose as the last of a long line of leaving staff memembers, maybe it is time for me to walk away, and focus on more things in life, heck even got a job offer today from a company and it’d probably be more money, but part of me hates walking away from something thats been a big part of my life/time these past couple years, but I suppose that’s why change is hard.
But above and beyond the above overly long paragraph, local work has been fun, I dunno, a lot of projects, things seem old, stale, and “completed” in some way, FlockHosting has gone beyond my wildest dreams, is it making me billions? Naw, never was meant to - but it sustains itself, Thrust Networks exsists, ocasional sign-ups, but it mainly houses my in-town consulting really, but I may ditch the name consolidate the customers into a new primary company name, something more me - been 5+ years, bound to be time for a change there too - but I am looking over things, and I just don’t feel the drive I did a year ago to work, nice polar shift to having a life, but that has been one of the blessings of FlockHosting and other long term endevours, they have a life of their own, they sustain themselves financially, and if this server change looks good, the servers will be fairly well self sustained as well - but personal life keep coming into the focus.
This week I have had about 3 people tell me to just take a leap, to ask the question which could be a source of great join, or a kick in the head, but in the end, it’d be asked, it’d get an answer, and life would go on one way or another, and I suppose I should, oh the backwardsness of my life - normally this stuff is dealt with in High School / College - I kind of skipped that step and went straight into business, working for people, and lead up to my own business, hope this isn’t too hard
And to cover the last note of my topic, I really want some, I mean I know it’s 2:40am, but man it’d be good right now, maybe some bacon with it, and some OJ, mmm… if only I had some texas toast here, I’d whip up the mix myself, some extra vanilla, maybe some extra cinnamon, mmmm - okay, making myself far too hungry, maybe I should cruise down to Denny’s…. oh my odd life lol.
So that’s it, my brain at 2:40am, listening to the soundtrack from Shopgirl, very awesome music, definately worth a listen if you want something mellow for the evening - anywhoo - I think I am gonna sit here and stare for a bit more at MRTG graphs and SmokePings - joys of stress testing 3 bonded T1’s Night folks, thanks for reading.
The good news that after 5 or so months of waiting, I got me a new keyboard and mouse, no more having to pound a few letters, but it is a challenge getting this running as it is not a traditional layout that I am used to - so I am having to press some keys twice as I get used to the layout, and for linuxy things its going to be tough too as the insert key is up top - a tad odd, but workable, just gonna take some time to get used to - but the keyboard is nice, Bluetooth 2.0 so completely wireless (mouse is charing now) but its a pretty nice thing to come home after my day of trying to catch up on sleep and trying to be patient with the internet service provider for the office.
But end of the day we have the 4.5mbps line running, it may not be staying if they can’t iron out the issues, so time will tell, but its just plain odd, as we got a 4.5mbps line and while we are getting good speeds, the moment we put stress on the line at ANY level the line goes south very quickly, packetloss, increased latency, etc. not like a traditional T1 I am used to, but it SHOULD be faster, it is afterall 3 t1’s binded together - so who knows!
A friend found out today he is expecting his 3rd child congrats Mr. F - he explained to me that I need to get some more exciting, life changing news in my life lol - so I am working on that, what to do what to do but all in all this week while busy busy busy - and lack of sleep - it has been a good run, still some things to iron out in the server testing, haven’t had a TON of time to devote to it, but its DNS is kinda wacky, so I need to see if its fixable, but it’s codename is TITUS - and so far its running smooth, updated cPanel, installed courrier imap, and have more various intro security tasks to do, but so far very secure, very simple, and very easy to manage from a server standpoint, it took 1hr 8m to install a new server from scratch this method, and that ain’t bad! So pretty excited at the possiblities of this - now just more testing, but that’ll happen on monday I’d imagine.
Anywhoo - I think its nappy time, or at the very least lean back in the computer chair and listen to some tunes and wait for the mouse to charge Have a good evenin folks.
I really do! It has been a while since I went to sleep early, only to wake up a few hours later, unable to goto sleep - I am seriously considering driving downtown, and working on that server lol - but I am going to hold myself back, I must be strong - really not a ton to say probably a more robust update tonight, for now, I am going to try sleeping again, see if it works… here’s to hoping!
Currently sitting down here in front of a new server we are setting up for the office - must say its looking fair, had some minor hiccups as I have never dealt with CentOS before, but definately has a Fedora-ish feel to it, but the system is moving along, cPanel has had some minor glitches, as this is a 64bit system, dual core - beast of a machine, so compiling some stuff from source it seems to make it work - but all in all, its progressing.
Probably another hour or two here, then its back home for hopefully a night of sleep - but I have been very happy thus far today with the progress of testing this new provider, some exciting possiblities to consider, new backup setups, new configuration options, but still, want to test it out a bit more, push it to its limits, and see what it can and can-not do - just need new tunes I think, hrm… wonder if iTunes has anything I havent heard yet…. post more later.
The last 72 hours have been… interesting, but what it comes down to is not just great names for a server and a laptop (faith = server / grace = laptop) - but from a lifestyle perspective. Faith, believing in the unseen - to Grace, getting something we do not deserve or have not earned - a lot of things in life are that way.
My past couple of posts have been about the strangeness of life latey, heck there are even things going on not written here, lawsuits, other clients who have mini-beefs (lack of storage, missing modules, piddly stuff easy to fix) about things, complications at the office, etc. etc. etc. - but tonight things just kind of came to a head again, a mixed day, ending with one phone call, one voice on the other end which turned things around, made me remember life may be rough, but we don’t go at it alone - but part of that is a choice - I could go over my life of posts for the last few years, I could go on about ups, downs, etc. but in the end, it comes down to this “God is Good” and he gives us that choice to choose how we walk this life, ourselves dragging our burdens, or side by side going together, and not just in a walk with him, but friends/family/loved ones, we choose what we want them to be in our lives - while we want to appear strong, avoid the appearance of weakness, sometimes, proof of weakness and needing help is a great relief of a burden.
So today starts a new round of testing, investing some cash into projects, tightening the belt a bit more, but moving forward, some other fun projects are on the docket for this week, helping with Wedding Invitation Envelopes, and hopefully, a fully online/operational 4.5mbps line at the office - but just moving forward, leaning on that faith, that grace - and who knows, maybe even throwing in a leap of faith to ask a question - but hopefully things this week will turn out okay. Only thing I am dreading is the response from this email I have written, not sure how it’ll be taken, but it may spark some extra work, or it may usher in my pink slip - but either way, I am good about it, just need closure/resolution one way or another.
Anywhoo - another thing I hope to do this week is a new picture of the week/day/month etc. get back out there some, relax outdoors - later evenings, coming up on a full moon, and this strong urge to take a night drive up to the mountains and rent a hotel room there for the night so I can stay late, take photos, then come back and crash there, for some AM shots up there too - not sure, we shall see -but continued prayers are appriciated, oh and lift up Rosie she may be sneaking into a final early tomorrow, and also for students in general, it’s that time of year again as another school year / semseter wraps up, so I am sure there is a lot of midnight oil burnin around lately
Anywhoo - 3am, time to crawl over to the bed, put my head on the pillow, and drift off to sleep… who knows, it may just work.
Who knows, maybe its all part of this crazy road my life is on, just need to figure out which way its going - to that end, I see my pillow from the glow of the monitor, so I am going to go and visit it. Night folks.
