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What a week, and it’s only Tuesday - yet feel’s like Thursday.
Got home around 10:45pm - mixed day, some big stuff, some small stuff, mainly prep (more in the morning) for a meeting tomorrow at 10am, working on all the details, getting things printed up, etc. but it’s pretty cool, if this deal goes through, I think it should be about $350 extra a month into my pocket - but maybe a little less - but it’s one of two things hanging around right now.
Kman invited me out to dinner with him and billy, got mexican food, stomach was a little uneasy and went safe with a side of rice and beans, twas really good - chips were fresh, gal who served us was very pleasent, so a nice dinner, then hung out with Kman a bit and discussed random things - then hit the office, called Rosie to see if she wanted me to meet her after her shift to setup her DSL - but about 5 minutes ago she called and said she was going to bed.
So here I am sitting, pondering, which is a bad thing for me to do when I am exhausted, I tend to overthink things, possabilitize situations which I have already gone over in my head 30,000 times before - why this, but not that, why them, not me, the 10,000 questions which most folks brains deal with in the background, mine brings to the foreground and nit-picks at it for hours - tonight’s the usual “why didn’t I” situation, a choice I made that I feel God really said “Wait” on, just seems odd - I almost don’t understand it, but at the same time do understand it, I mean in waiting I did avoid a VERY AWKWARD situation, but I guess life is all about timing, who asks first, deciding when to be observant of people’s requests, and when to focus on your desires first and foremost, I dunno - in this situation to remain mildly vague, its hard for me to walk away, probably why my brain always comes back to it - who knows, life - crazy stuff.
So I think I am going to wrap up on the web, walk away from it, watch a little TV in the living room, and then pass out in front of the TV. So I shall say goodnight, do throw up a prayer or two for me, this gig tomorrow would be awesome to get, and help speed the car along in payments. Night Folks.
Oi! I was checking the ol bank account tonight, and was greeted by a notice I had $80 in there, and I think my credit card payment did it’s auto-minimum payment - so its going to be like $3 very shortly… so many mini-bills came in, and it added up quickly, kinda of scary, I knew it’d be tight, but this isn’t funny - crazy car buying!
So hopefully everything thats coming down the pipe, hurries the heck up. LoL Going to check the PayPal and have it dump most of the funds from there to the business account and work to get it back over $100 even with auto-card payment, which should of been less, but forgot one purchase I made, and it made a difference. Sooo - guess its time to get FH done and online, perk up TN, and follow up on all these possible contracts, no more lunches out, have to eat otter pops for a week lol.
So prayers are definately appriciated, not tooooo concerned, but at the same time, really don’t want to run the risk of overdrafts, just not sure why client payments are slow coming in! Anywhoo - off I go to re-run the checkbook and see what happened exactly, and see what I can do to pump-up the funds before I leave if possible, so the bank account isn’t too bear and have another $30 fee come in throwing me into over-draft and another $45 in fees for going into overdraft! Craziness.
Night Folks.
What a week. For the first time last night, I got sleep, twas odd, nice, and of course, now I want more.
Got a lot done this week, and taking off Wed. I have some to catch up on Saturday, but not a TON that can’t wait till Monday to work on again, but got a call this afternoon from the gym, apparently the folks who made their computers (not me) came in and well, for lack of a better word SCREWED everything up, they are trying to keep their foot hold in this town, and the gym has no plans to keep them, their hardware, etc. its just a bad situation.
So I got to go out and supervise a bit and find out what he was doing, guy was soooo know-it-all and kept trying to really put me in my place (as I am the guy replacing their company) - he kept explaining to me things like “WiFi Interferance” which we checked for when we setup wireless, and things like “Registry Editor” how its a very advanced tool, and I more or less then asked him why he removed all the hardware I had installed, that the gym had PAID me to do, and he said “Well it needed to be done” - it all still works, so it will be with the new workstations I am building, and on top of all that, I may get a service contract on the computers! So a monthly wage to keep things running smooth, and oh boy howdy, will I.
PLUS while there above and beyond getting that news of service contracts & PC building, I got a gig for starters doing some photography! (Woohoo!) and possibly a wedding as well! I really need to do some in-doors shooting practice between now and April if I do indeed get it - but it’s two kids I enjoy Joe and Jennesse - didn’t even know they had got engaged! But she showed me the ring, and we discussed Save-The-Date cards, invites, etc. So for now, we have a photo shoot set for Sept. 1, and it should be fun, going to look around for some good outdoor locations other than my favorites (Ming/Heart Park) and see what purdy things we can come up with.
Anywhoo - I am going to go now and do some PC pricing, and see what I can come up with, what a day, what a week, what a life. More Later.
Well I am waiting for my ReplayTV to finish copying to my PC, recorded in high quality, so I could burn this TV episode to disc/re-vamp some - friends have been wanting to see this - quality stuff… just needed a bigger TV.
In other news, I just got a telephone call after Rosies (cover that in a sec) from “Domain Registry” wanting to confirm information on a domain which is not mine, nor is currently registered - it goes no-where, its blank, open, you the reader could go buy it now, so the guy says the domain and I open a terminal on the ol iMac here, and whois it (gotta love CLI!) and its open, I tell the guy that, there is nothing to confirm, there is no information attached to the domain - and he keeps going off his script, its awesome, so I just start laughing, and he asks “Sir why are you laughing?” and I walk him through the process of domain ownership, and such I figure he is calling my business line, it costs me airtime, not money, so keep his money per minute line (aka 1-866 number) on line as long as I can, and he keeps assuring me I own the domain, and have to confirm my information - I finally said “WHO ARE YOU” and he said “Thank you for your time sir and being so polite.” and hung up lol.
Anywhoo - back to other news in the human race that has no script - got the call from Rosie that tomorrow is the big day for moving, so have truck will travel, one of these days its gonna be my move, hopefully I can get all these folks to help me move 
but we start at 9am and load it all up and get it moved. Should be fun - nothing like a good move to get the blood flowin. So keep me in your prayers tomorrow, as well as Rosie & Her fam and all those moving her to her new diggs.
Anywhoo - gonna go check the PC see where the download is, get it over to the Mac and get some iMovie love going.
Well tonight I was “fun” - a customer hit me up via email saying their forums had been hacked, thankfully the subject line was one of frustration so reading the subject I didn’t wet my pants with the classic “THE SERVER IS HACKED!” which has been done before, but I do understand the feeling, frustration, fear, that comes from your site getting hit.
So the reason for doing it and wiping out her entire collection of posts, was because the software was old, and thus she needed a wake up call more or less - I just don’t understand why these guys can’t just drop a email, leave a comment, post a thread - let people know, give them a CHANCE to do something, I mean it’s summer, so lot of the youth owned sites are going to be neglected some, while others are going to get more attention than they do most of the year - it just boggles my mind.
Thankfully her backups were only a day old, and so the database restore took some tweaking, but it got back online - ho-hum, sad stuff, I know in my youth I had too much spare time with computers, heck I chatted weekly in my “art group” making software tweaks, chatting about servers, using ol IRC - but no one in our group was descrutive. But none the less, times change, so let this be a warning to everyone out there - update your scripts, its not a time consuming thing - just means 10-15 minutes out of your day to help keep your site running smooth - and helps me get some sleep (really tired lately).
But that’s it really, just a little un-winding post, these situations get me worked up a bit, always hafta check servers over afterwards - but its nights like this lately I want to say “Anyone want to buy a hosting company?” - I think I’d like being a traveling photographer / piano man 
Night folks.
Sometimes the concept of Church bothers Me - growing up in a highly involved church family, I served in church from the time I was old enough to carry the offering plate - range of serving, range of things I did by my choice, and the ocasional I did to stand in the gap, but today I got the call that just really kind of irked me about church.
A pastor who is a friend of the family, more or less told me my idea of learning about God, about sharing, about fellowshiping with people of like faith was more or less silly, he in turn then switched into “pitch” mode, not “pray about it” but - “you know….” telling me that I needed to be at HIS church - don’t get me wrong, I am sure I could find somewhere to serve there, but honestly I enjoy the quiet time in prayer/bible study, the good conversations of faith with Friends, and sharing with folks how God is Good. I realize from what I have heard from other members at his church is he wants me to stand in the gap to take load off him from playing the piano, possibly sing, and re-vamp their computer layout - which is fine, but ask me to help, don’t demand things of me, don’t tell me I MUST come to your church - I don’t mind helping, but I honestly don’t feel any connection there like I have at other churches growing up - so its not a prime choice for a home church.
Life in Christ is being Alive, a new birth, a new life, not shackling yourself to a pew, not sitting in the same butt groove you have made in the pew over the years — Life is about living — I have spent many years sitting in a pew, I loved listening to my Grandfather, My Father, Various other awesome ministers around town, but right now I don’t feel called to become a “MEMBER” anywhere, I am definately going to try to hop around more soon, but just like with my business, I don’t mind doing a task for someone if they ask, but beating around the bush is silly - plain and simple.
For years I haven’t really lived, I sat behind a PC, worked, slept, worked, slept, worked, slept - you get the idea, in the last 2 years God has really helped me with Good Friends, Good Fellowship, and Grace to get past many of my anxieties, many of my holdups, many things which have held me back from Truly living, so who knows, maybe that’s what this road trip is leading up to, maybe I am to travel around, help Churches revamp tech - you just never know! All in God’s Time, while I wish that was sooner sometimes, I can only rely on him for it all, like my relationships both Friendship and Romantic, both Business and Pleasure, everything in HIS time, HIS timetable for my life is the only way to Life, and thus Truly Living.
Well it was bound to happen sooner or later, the constant awake/alert/online nights, adding up to need for mass amounts of sleep, spent most of the weekend off and on snoozin, granted its gotten hot in here (+100F - side effect of computers) - but I just feel drained and then some, probably going to crawl over to the bed here shortly and crash out for once before 5am - and hopefully tomorrow I can finish up cleaning up the last bits of my room, have a pile of mail from the office & here to go through, and a burn/shred pile thats huge!
But this week looks to be a busy one, Monday I am going to finish up the last bits of K-Man’s server, then hit the office a bit to work on the servers there - plus I need to buy a fan or two, maybe get with my dad to fix up my car so I can get my good milage back and my brakes/seals fixed - but honestly I just want to sleep off this week if it were possible, but I must push forward - some fun stuff on the FH plate, and some other possible fun things, just a lot going on in all areas, brain is tired just thinking about most of it.
Anywhoo - thats all this tired brain has, it is now going to visit its friend the pillow. Night.
