Sooo today was the day, the first offical BLU-RAY purchase, Wall-E was at Target @ Lunch, and I grabbed it! Going to watch it here in a bit, been un-winding from the day, but pretty jazzed, a cute movie, and very excited to add it as my first Blu-Ray purchase!
I think I have come up with the plan, I am still praying on it - but just updating all of you praying (I appreciate it!) The Plan is to continue to work at my current job as I had originally commited myself to stay 1 year, and I am going to abide by that original commitment, I know some of my frustrations are from a lack of sleep and health as of late - but a few crazy weeks will do that to anyone - BUT - I am also going to email the church about this job, and see what exactly they are hoping for, long-term/short-term - see if I can get a feel, if I am filling someones shoes, or working beside, just get the jist of it from the horse’s mouth so to speak - but then if that sounds do-able and I am not the 24th person in line, I am going to discuss the idea of working hourly @ my current job, maybe slightly reduced hours/pay, but enough to stay insured & do the youth ministry @ church - so going to put that into motion tomorrow.
Sick - as I mentioned my health being not so great, since last Friday just been achy, queasy, etc. I joked with one lady at work that I may be pregnant as she was reading off symptoms to her daughter on her cell about going into labor, I had a few of them! I may stay home tomorrow, not 100% sure, but we’ll see how tonight goes and play it by ear.
Anywhoo - that’s my update, I’ll have another one probably Thursday…. I solved a recent delima, and it should be all situated Thursday (I hope) so I’ll keep you posted, other than that, I am going to crack the BluRay disc open and drop it in the player and call it a evening. Have a Great Fake Friday Everyone!
So I think I am going to possibly be going for some change soon, or so is my Prayer Request tonight, if your a normal reader of the insanity that is my blog, you know that my job is stress, and as I was discussing with my Friend Jon tonight, it is also something that steals my joy - change is needed - in which my Church has an opening right now for 20h a week, which might be a good fit for me, and a place of more joy vs. stolen joy! So I’d ask any of you who are believers in prayer to lift me up over the next week or two as I too lift up this opportunity.
Projects, currently my plate is kind of clean of business projects, finished a website more or less, just was tired of waiting on content so I handed it off, and let them manage it thru a web based CMS, but I am looking at projects like HappyPalm and such as possiblities to bring back to highlight various mobile options - so probably more on that soon.
Netbook vs. iMac - I think I have settled on the Netbook, the ASUS Eee PC 1000 40G - going to sleep on it, really weigh the options, but things like 802.11n, Bluetooth, 1.3mp camera, etc. all pretty nice, granted the total 40GB is split between a SD Card and a SSD - still solid state media vs. moving parts HD - so all in all seems pretty swell - iMac or new Ubuntu rig probably first of the year - gotta have them expenses.
Anywhoo - that’s my quick wrap up, do keep me lifted up in your prayers, I’d greatly appreciate it - as for now things are working, but I don’t want this job to be the death of me, or cause me to become bitter towards people as there are some people there who need to let good things happen to them instead of sabotaging themselves at every turn. So good night, have a good Monday!
Life is slowly getting back to “normal” for me I am no longer really 100% sure what that is anymore. I wish I could say I wake up every morning looking forward to a day at the office, to working on my own business with the limited time allotted to me, and that my life was truly as balanced or happy as it was even a year ago, but sometimes life isn’t always what you planned.
I can safely say my finances are better than they were last year, but money has never been the “it” factor for me. I know I enjoy doing nice things for folks with the funds I have, but I have never felt like my finances defined me - but having more makes paying bills, buying food, etc. a lot easier - but is it worth the price? Is it worth the day to day insanities at a job where kindness is rare, respect can’t even seemed to be earned and despicable things happen.
I can safely say I am looking at other options - I know I have toyed with the idea of going back all-in with my own business, but sadly I know with the state of things for most website owners a simple blog may be a strain on the budget at even a lowly $5 a month - but when the budget gets tight some thing simply go away - I would love to get away from the BS of my day job, but I know that if I take another day job, there is going to be similar BS - apparently disrespect, disregard, and lack of honor are common place in most jobs.
Things aren’t all bad, but a lot is going on in my head lately, triggered by many things at work, like for one doing a favor more or less for one lady got me chewed out by her on the phone as she felt I should drop ALL work at the office to start work on her home computer - throw in the various other events of the past week and today - I really, really, really wanted to tell her where to stick her nasty comments - but apparently saying something rude to a member of the admin group @ the office is not a good thing.
While some storms are indeed calming, others seem to be forming on the horizon, and I know me taking a day for a memorial service isn’t going to sit well I am sure - but with this job I just find myself battling week after week to do whatever it is they want, only to get yelled at that the 300 things each person gave me wasn’t done, but this place gives no room to breathe, so do keep me in your prayers on that front.
I wish I had more to really lay out on what’s on my heart with many things, but my mind is so upside and backwards, I remember days getting away up the mountain to just hear the wind, to take pictures of the wide open spaces, I long for that, I miss that, I want to work somewhere positive, and not the daily drama, disrespect, and disregard for others, but at the same time I feel like for some reason, as always I am there for a reason, if nothing else to be an example, but seems like when on the job, my own desires are by the wayside.
Anywhoo - I don’t want to be completely down, but I also am getting tired - so some good news, Cory is staying here this week, on his moving trip to Oregon, so pretty cool to see the old friend again, and next week I am buying Wall-E on Blu-Ray - so 2 good things, hopefully tomorrow will let me have a few more, prayers appreciated. Happy Fake Friday.
So much going on these past few weeks, dad’s surgery, sister getting held up, work, business, etc. and today getting the sad news of Scott’s mom passing - I know everyone else is a buzz on the election, but honestly - it’s the least of my concerns/worries at the moment, folks seem to like Obama, hopefully after his first small mistake/blunder they will grant him grace and not the usual “IMPEACH!” they seem to carry with every other official we have elected in the last few years, I’d really like to see him do well, but the US has become very snap-judgement-ful (my new word) about elected officials.
Tonight did end up wrapping up good, all things considered, came home exhausted ate some pizza, and laid down to take a quick “nap” however the 45m nap I setup, had me rolling over and adding another 30m to it gave me enough energy to really get onto the other projects I had hoped to do last night, but the internet was and still is having issues, download speeds are AWESOME 30Mbps at times, but the upload is a sad sad sad 3kbps (Sad Sad Sad) so it took me about an hour what I’d hope would be 5 minutes.
Anywhoo - keep the McNutt’s in your prayers, txt’d scott near the end of work, and he said they were “hanging in there” I can’t even imagine - but were here if ya need us buddy - meals, help with arragements, print work for the service, whatever it is (heck I’ll even shine your shoes if needs be) - just let us know - and to the rest of you thanks for your prayers. Night.
So up and about after a good turkey induced nap - been a wild week or so with work, which all seemed to melt away when my little family of friends (and some who are family) came over on Friday night to share pizza with me, 4 pies - one was $1.99! We had a GREAT time, which is what I needed, a nice break in the constant bleh that has been work as of late, with the stress, disrespect etc. but such is the job on occasion, but it won’t be that way forever… at least I hope not
Having my good friends over it was an amazing time, my sister and her husband, my cousin - and all my close friends who’s houses I usually venture to on a Friday night to hang out with, all at my place, even Mr. Solomon came and joined in the fun, it was an amazing night, a great blessing (amazing food additions!) so just what I needed.
Today was mellow as well, slept in, then got a call about needing some help fixing up my parents TV, and that there was a Turkey being cooked (Test Turkey #1) so I left here a little after noon at about 2lbs of turkey, and then came home and worked a bit, only to loose out to the turkey and pass out into a lovely nap - the first Saturday in a while where I actually got to rest up a bit and not have to get a call asking for XYZ, or 3 emergencies waiting for MY attention, rest, plain and simple.
Starting to hopefully, finally get a bit of balance between the day job, my business, and personal - it takes time as always, but I have some amazing folks in my life who this week all told me they were praying for me, even one guy who I have known for a long time who also acts as a sales rep for a company I deal with @ the day job, called because he’s been concerned & praying for me - so good to know folks are watching out.
Anywhoo - I am going to go find a quick snack for dinner, maybe one of the 3 pieces of pizza left over from last night or maybe some scrambled eggs + toast, something simple for sure - but I really am craving cookies, so I may need to go buy some stuff from the store! Have a Good Sunday Folks! and thanks to everyone for their prayers and encouragement!
So things are leveling out, things are getting better and changes are happening - one happened without much REAL planning, on the matter of “construction” my employers @ my day job are quick to move forward - thus today I did not have a office. They started work on taking out the wall between the old workout room, and my office, thus I had to re-locate. The issue was no one considered the servers - when dealing with Drywall there is a LOT of dust, so with the help of a friend from AR and my weak but workable arms, I relocated hardware to a cubicle down the way from my office.
The good news is this is all going to be DONE tomorrow, they nearly finished it today, but just not all the way, so things are going to wrap up tomorrow, and I’ll get a desk back, and after work I’ll re-locate servers back and in time get them racked up and off the floor and the silly stands.
But that leads to the big question on my heart lately, in a year, do I keep the day job? or do I go back to the joys of keeping my own hours, fighting for work, etc. - or do I stick around, or is there some other balance I can achieve? I just miss the ability to relax, heal up, this was the first time I recall being this sick for this long - granted I have healthcare now in which I can go get poked and prodded… but I think a lot of it is stress/exposure to sick folks on a more regular basis.
Feb 2009 is my big call time, unless something happens sooner than later to the job/position which doesn’t fit - but if nothing else I may see if we can wing a better hour setup come a year, something that gives me a lot more flexibility and reduction of stress from the politics and plain insanity of the office and I know in most jobs/positions that’ll never be gone 100% - but at this point my health, sanity, and budget are big factors in things, but who knows come 2009, I may have a new direction I never considered.
Anywhoo - that’s the random bits on my mind tonight, going to go and take the laptop and toy with a website or two (including FH/TN!) then some upgrades are on the books… so we’ll see what happens! Night all!
So a long day at work, left the office at 7:30, 2 hours later than my normal day, going to probably go in early as well, but the firewall is in place, so that’s a start towards good things - but a long day to say the least, been up over 12 hours, and I think I have a few more to go, but the pizza will be here soon!
But it is still weird coming home to my place. For over 20 years my home was the same place, even when I had my own place, it was the same place and the only difference was I was the only one in a 3bdr house but this is getting there, getting used to the idea of silence again, always one thing I found hard, but thanks to some book suggestions I hope to have some fun reading material soon, even though I have cable, it’d be nice to really unwind my brain into some paper pages.
In other news, security system comes in tomorrow, from there it’s getting the install done, and everything nice and happily secured. Going to hit T-Mobile tomorrow after work or at lunch and see about getting the T-Mobile @ Home, they’ll try to rope me into a 2 yr contract renewal, but I am going to of course manage to wiggle my way into a single year (or else!) - but hopefully it’ll be good.
Anywhoo - pizza should be here shortly, going to go get my glass of Dr. Pepper ready to enjoy the tasty Chicken Alfredo Pizza Have a GREAT night, and wonderful Fake Friday!
gave me enough energy to really get onto the other projects I had hoped to do last night, but the internet was and still is having issues, download speeds are AWESOME 30Mbps at times, but the upload is a sad sad sad 3kbps (
