Quick Post!

Tomorrow I am going into the job and shadowing a bit, still not 100% sure I have it, but I wanted to check in and remind them who I am, and also further qualify myself for the job But since I am tired tonight, I am going to leave you all with this:

Night!

The Interview, The Food, The Movie, and a Pug

So it’s that time again apparently, my two usual folks are now on their 3rd month of keeping me super tight on the budget, I guess that’s what you get for giving folks a deal *shrug* who knows, I am just tired of this game - thankfully the core servers are paid up, so I have some time to work, the only one I have to worry about is one of the ones the client didn’t pay on, and if I get overdraft because of either of them, Oh they’ll be charged.

In other news, the interview went good, not sure what’ll become of it, so just leaving it in God’s hands really, as I am too tired to really focus on it at all, but I went to dinner with friends, we hung out, got sang to, and then I watch a movie @ Jakes with some of his friends, it was … well a movie. LoL.

I’d take the time to explain the pug thing, but that requires more brain power than I have at the moment - my hope is to wake up tomorrow, have a credit card payment waiting, and a call saying “Come pickup checks” but if not - then I think I’ll be shutting off a server or two, tired of the games.

Anywhoo - sleep becomes me, or at the very least it’s time to zone out in front of the TV. Night all.

Step forward, prepare to be slapped.

Ever just want to go up to someone and just slap em? I mean seriously. ugh.

Today was going good, but as my calls to various folks seemed to be on the ol “DND” bit, I ventured out - I really wish I had just stayed home and took a nap. My anger has been big lately, not even sure why, but it got taken to another level tonight, just a lot of things adding up, and I think it’s coming to a head for me to make a choice, but it’s a choice I don’t like having to make, and it’s when enough is enough, and I need to take a turn in life and avoid just further frustration, stress, and disrespect.

I dunno, I know I am tired, I know I am just anxious to get my finances back on track, but this problem is on going, respect is given, but rarely received back from this situation, I dunno - I’d say more but I know my blog has slowly but surely picked up the eye of others, and this is something I really need to discuss with them before the rest of the world, but its honestly - just really frustrating that in a field I’ve been working in for 15+ years, I get respect only on 1 area - servers, and that’s getting old, I do like servers, but I also like a little bit of mixing it up with code, layout, etc. and on top of that, I just continually feel taken advantage *shrug* I dunno, again, just ranting.

So I am unsure of what I am going to do, I’ve been slow to speak on it because of the anger bit, as what I could normally talk about rationally and maybe work something out could quickly burst in to flames and die a horrible death - lol - but maybe getting angry is just something I need to do about this, show how much it frustrates me (with a hint of added anger) and see what happens, part of me already has an idea, and that’ll simply be me out of the picture, playing this game this long, always turns out the same for me, when I decide that my being nice is getting taken advantage of and stand up for myself, I am more or less tossed away like a used napkin.

Anywhoo - that’s my brain, just so tired of all the BS, tired of going into what used to be a pleasant place to visit and hear the F word dropped 45 times within a 4 minute period - I can understand some swearing now and again, but when it’s the 3rd popular word in your vocabulary? I mean come on - more and more the 9/5 job looks more and more appealing. Anyone need a linux administrator, who knows a little bit of Windows/Mac too? well that’s all I’ve got, I am going to go flip on the TV, watch some shows and pass out hoping that tomorrow will be waiting with a smile on it’s face and a handful of money. Night all.

The week to come…

So I survived the time change, well so far at least but as it stands, I am awake - but I slept off and on most of the day, I think I may do more shortly, but who knows!

The week brings about some of the usual fun, chasing money, testing the new post office box, final bits of billing migration, paying bills, server upgrades, newsletter to go out, coding to do, server to probably deploy by week’s end, and I am sure more and more that I am thus far unaware of, or have pushed aside in my brain!

So I am off, going to go stare at the wall, just really tired all of the sudden, who knows - if I am lucky, maybe… just maybe… I’ll sleep till morning. One can hope

I just don’t understand

So another night, another “Will I goto sleep!?” question floating in my head, I am thinking of going for a drive - but time will tell I am currently looking over my “Social Networks” to see if anything exciting is going on, granted I check Facebook more than MySpace, but none the less I am poking around them all, and sometimes it just boggles the mind on services like MySpace and Twitter - why just add everyone? I mean granted you could become “more social?” but at the same time who has the ability (or time) to keep up with 8000+ people? I mean really, at some point after 125 I see it becoming white noise - thus why I am happy with my small # of people, that I actually know, have conversations with, and occasionally in some cases - see in real life.

The new week has some new fun ahead (I hope) tomorrow will be a light day, really focusing on working around the ol house a bit, with occasional breaks to work on the web, but I really want to continue my adventure into cleaning my room, which does mean tomorrow will be a day of possibly buying furniture - but really I imagine I’ll just be around here most of the day working to do some filing and such, then in the evening, maybe a nice dinner with some friends if anyone is game.

Website wise, I have been toying with a website, and as it seems more and more there are more folks who were old CMCentral.com staff cropping up with websites which all have a similar (not exactly the same) feel/direction to them, I do want something different, something original, but it seems a majority of the folks I’d have help all want sort of what everyone else is doing lol - but I do want to get a site up and running again, over the last 2 years I have written some code that’d make managing a website pretty easy, not to mention some good setups for syndication of articles written - but I need to finish writing up a game plan, as no one else is going to do it for me, but I am going to setup a Wiki with a layout as I see it, then have folks jump in and help flesh out the details for each area.

Anywhoo - life is crazy, I don’t understand it a lot lately, budget will be tight another month it looks like, but it’s becoming the norm, so not too worried, but my hope, my desire, my goal, is to get it back on par by years end - if not sooner, and like I have said, by the start of 2008 be ready to get a new place. So prayers are appreciated, thanks for reading my ramblings, and I’m off - maybe some tacos…. mmmm tacos.

Work… ah goodtimes!

Now that’s what I call 2 days. A lot has been going on with business stuff as of late, I recently finished up the basic ground work to a new Thrust Networks homepage - it’s been nearly 7 years since it’s original went online, and for 7 long years it stayed the same - so now it’s getting a new lease on life, and I am very excited - in part I was prodded to get it up to date by the application process to process credit cards, you have to submit your website for review and make sure things like “Return Policy” and such are all clearly listed, and having gone thru it once before with my now “old” provider who will be canceled within a month or so (phasing folks over) I knew the game - so things went very smoothly, and now I can officially process Visa, Mastercard, AMEX, Discover! Definitely very stoked!

I had a good meeting with a client today, and got to talk with my good buddy Dan-o, was a nice day, I feel exhausted like I have run a marathon, maybe it’s some of this stress finally letting up, especially with this new card processor, it’s simply awesome, I bill a card thru it, instead of waiting 2 days, it’s in my account instantly, and I have a Debit card attached, so instant access to funds - very nice indeed, but also the finishing of the first leg of TN and now releasing the first of the FH Crazy October deals, very excited indeed, finishing up the game-plan for the remainder of the week as well as fine tuning some for next week - but I just feel like the tides are turning for the better.

Tonight I start test runs of Apache2 + PHP5 - my hope is to test several of the major apps out there in PHP, such as Wordpress, Gallery, 4Images, Etc. and ensure PHP5 compatibility, but I have a funny feeling for at least another 6 months, I’ll need to run both PHP4 & PHP5 to accommodate folks - but the big thing I am excited about is the migration of security to Apache2 and ModSecurity2.x - both which are wonderful tools, as-is for the current Apache 1.x/ModSecurity1.x branches - but 2 offers some more sexy with things like the ModSecurity Console - it’d be nice to have a more real-time over-view of security happenings across the servers, so I can make adjustments to the ModSecurity rules to better safeguard customers to the best of my ability.

So a fun evening ahead of me, which will probably just end with me passing out here in about 20 minutes, and having happy dreams - or I’ll get my second wind and start working on customer transfers from old billing -> new billing (yay!) already have a few in there, but more to come - ah fun fun fun - and PHP5 + Apache2 just finished compiling, dev copy of Wordpress on that box is working fine, more testing soon
Anywhoo - thanks for reading, more news on the way, lots coming up, lots going on, for now I’ll settle for a nap… or at least a “resting my eyes” session - night folks!