The Fight for Positivity. #struggleisreal

Today is one of those days I guess, not a fan of what I see in the bank account, a small mountain of work in front of me, and I don’t even want to sluff it off, I honestly just want to not really even stare at a wall right now. The sun is out and I’ve considered just going for a LONG walk, but sadly some of these items on the todo are time sensitive.

The loop of music I’ve got today is:

A great song, really been one of those things I’ve found myself continually reminding myself that I have something positive to hang on to, but its been a rough couple of months, even today had to just call the doctor asking about the continuation of an injectable med (BCise) as its having some mixed issues, one of which my blood sugars are higher with it, and it’s leaving knots in my gut + a lingering pain from my ribcage to my back.  Not fun.

So a mountain of stress/bad – and I’m going to keep fighting for positive, and to make this post have something actually positive, I made a sugar free bowl.

The sugar free bowl #diabetes #sugarfree #snacks #3dprinting

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Diabetic Road: First in a Journey

Everyone has their journey in life. But sometimes you just need to read something that says “Okay, I’m not completely crazy.” because in a trip like this, sometimes you may feel like you are, so I’m going to post at least once a week from now on regarding my journey with diabetes.

So about four years ago I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. I went to see my new GP, and in checking my A1C, it was off the charts. Bad. Like really bad. So, of course, what does he say? Very just matter of fact:

You are a diabetic. Check your sugars. Take care.

You may say “Oh come now, it wasn’t that bad – it was. He sent me off with a followup appointment, but with no tools to check my sugar. No meter. No supplies. Nothing. Not even a prescription for Metformin the grand-daddy of sugar drugs. Nothing.

So I left the office, I didn’t think, I just got the word that my life was changed, I had diabetes. 

After I spoke with my Wife about it, I called back, asked how I was to check my sugar, and the nurse simply confused said: “You don’t have a meter?” I didn’t; I explained I didn’t know I was a diabetic. All of this was new, and she told me to come in, and she gave me a meter, walked me through using everything and that was that, as it turns out for me, that was also the last for that doctor as my GP.

It may have been rash, it may have been maybe the worst choice I could have made, but honestly, I never felt more abandoned by the person I entrusted my health and wellness to than I did by this guy, so I moved onto my Wife’s GP.

Now with my Wife’s GP, she was a big “test for everything” person, I don’t personally like that approach, I know my sugars sucked, so she got me on metformin, and it sucked. Hard. Bad. [insert word of choice for not fun that you can think of here].

I have not been a big taker of medications in my life, the one time I could remember (well what I could remember) was after a car accident, and I’m missing about one day of time from the meds I took. So meds tend to hit me hard. Metformin did not do well.

I went through Metformin, Glipizide, and Onglyza all on samples, never finding a med that worked 100% of the time and since Metformin didn’t sit well it wasn’t a matter of stacking and getting better results with meds working together, it was one different one each time.

I hit the spot where honestly, my wife’s GP wasn’t cutting it. Appointments were 2-3 hours before you were even seen, it made work hard to keep up with since there was zero internet access in the bowels of the building – it wasn’t working so what did I do? The best I could.

Watched what I ate, got a Walmart Brand ReliOn meter and strips (which were all obtainable without dealing with a pharmacy, just visit your local Walmart) and did what I could to avoid tons of sugar, throw some exercise in there, and eat well.

Life threw in stresses, life dealt me blows here and there – but fast forward years I hit a snag. My sugars were terrible after getting through some insane months of extreme work hours both at the desk & outside building and fixing up two houses.

It left me with some spikes which led my wife to finally make the call and say “I’m worried about my husband” to a local Endocrinologist’s office which took me in rather quickly for some workups, got blood work and we got to work.

We’ve done some working on things. Currently, he’s attacking several factors. We’ve tried Glyxambi, Metformin (no side effects this time around), Jardiance, and others, but we’ve hit snags with injectables like Trulicity. It affected my mood (I think it was too aggressive on sugars and my body not used to significant lows, acted out) and BCise currently but I think it’s causing more bad than good – so may go soon.

Sadly I did have to make my way to insulin because they felt the numbers were jumping around too much, from higher spikes near 300, but then strange lows like 116! It’s an odd thing blood sugar as I could take blood from the same prick and have a difference of 40 points, so they gave me a new meter, same thing.

This week has been an odd one, and as the BCise has started to come off and I approach another day to inject tomorrow. I’m going to call in and see if they think its wise.

I’ve had a pain in my gut on the injection site and its similar to what they say about the side effects is a bad thing, but as it’s come down to today. With the Toujeo its been in the 130-ish range, so I am going to stay at that dose tonight of 12 units and see if it does the job still off the BCise more or less.

I don’t know if you are reading this looking for a similar story, or help in determining if a drug is right for you/wrong for you – I’m just going to document my journey here on out. Stick around; I hope I can keep this going into a battle end with Type 2 and get out from under it.

Be strong!

Creating Something

Lately that itch is back. That desire to create. That desire to make something. My garage isn’t setup just yet after the move last year, it’s more of a storage room at the moment (not even for a car!) but I find myself wanting to create and I was really digging creating the latest FlockHosting website:

I did that! Been a while since I really felt a good design groove and really came together nicely I felt! Now I just wish I had other areas to really build and make things right now but just feel like even with the next site I’m stuck:

The top slider is a demo slider as I have no content beyond building out a header area which has some issues with the responsive side as it makes two hamburger buttons on either side of the logo – but that’s not impossible to fix + put in a mobile all in one nav.

All in all, I just want to create! I have this itch now and again but lately seem to be in a slump of actually moving into something to get it done.

For now, I get to go gas up the truck, get meds, and needles. Also hoping the postal service somehow amazingly processed mail from another city and got it here in one day… a dream – but hey I can hope!

Health, Life, Business

13 days till the big upgrade, not really looking forward to it, nor dreading it – it’s gonna happen whether I like it or not 🙂

I have had a rough week. My sugars aren’t leveling out and doc officially added insulin to the mix. Not something I had desired honestly. Tonight is the first night that I’ve increased my dosage from 10units -> 12 units as 10 units wasnt’t cutting it, so slowly on-boarding to find a dose that works – I am honestly thinking it’ll end up being 11, but time will tell, as 3 days with 10 no luck, now onto 12 for 3 days. Here goes nothing.

Life is crazy, made it though V-Day, both gals in my life were very happy with my flowers, I will admit while the wife enjoyed the flowers, the daughter went maybe a tad crazier over a giant red tulip 🙂 She’s three and excited 🙂

Business is blah. Just a lot of stress lately with cash-flow, I hate it when customers seem to have more power than I do. I have one who is 3 weeks of payments behind, I do contract administration for them and in some cases its 4 payments before I get the payments that as they were set up were meant to be delivered weekly – that’s only happened a few times.

Too business in general just in a slump, trying to stay positive, but when you throw in crappy blood sugar, negative nancy’s who aren’t pro no need for insulin, it’s not been a good balance of good/bad in life lately, seems like a lot of bad.

For now, I am going to try and take it easy the remainder of this evening, I do have a server reboot for a customer in about an hour, but I’ve taken my insulin, still need to take my other nightly meds before I crash out, but after 11, I think its going to be a quick translation from Chair -> bed.

Firming up Brands

One thing I’ve had over the years is a hodgepodge of interfaces to interact with customers. Dropbox to share a file, CloudApp to share a screenshot/video/etc – and the list could go on of 3rd Party Tools I’ve used to share a link which doesn’t bare my brand(s).

Now Thrust Networks I had previously done some work and CloudApp has a paid tier in which I got a custom URL, which was awesome. Having my logo at the top was great, but two things:

  1. Cost
  2. Can’t Have Two URL’s

And while FlockHosting tends to be more active to re-brand all Thrust Networks stuff over, just didn’t really work – so enter some great tools which have allowed me to really work on having some resources to bring things together!

Dropbox Replacement: NextCloud

It’s free. A great first start, but the sync clients for desktop/tablet/phone are a great addition! It’s awesome to share a file from my own URL, my own branding – the install is simple and on my servers, it runs smoothly, did two customer screencasts today to help with customer issues, and honestly, it was as simple as saving to a folder on my computer and tada. Online.

CloudApp Replacement: Dropshare

This one is great it came with Setapp and does a great job even more so than the replacement idea of Nextcloud for Dropbox, because there I have 2 installs for customer files on TN & FH – so two copies to keep up (but the app syncs both!) this is no server software, its all app.

I have 3 profiles set up one for Generic, FH, and TN – And I can easily switch between accounts to upload screenshots, short clips, etc. very very very handy.

Overall I’m really hoping to build out more tools, and yes while sometimes others have built it and its easier to just sign-up, these tools have added value & saved me money.

My New Friend: Trello

For a while now a few friends have included me on Trello boards and honestly? I never got it. It was unfamiliar and at the time, I just plain and simple did not have the time to sit and sort it out?

So what’s changed? Honestly? 2018 is here, and I’m trying hard to organize a bit more. I finally decided to look at the tool that folks say help do just that, and I’ve taken time to sit down and give it a fair shake as it seemed like a favorite tool and had benefits, but now it was time to test that idea.

So I sat down and made my first board. Just a brain dump as I’d call it, just a LOT of ideas in one spot that had no organization, so went from there to sort it out into various lists to contain the cards and my big board is born. Awesome.

It’s been a process for over a week but now working on other boards from core ideas born from this dump of information, for instance just put a teaching idea from the lists to a fresh list called “Reviewed/Done” which has it’s own board now.

Honestly a great workflow, just wish IFTTT or Zapier had a link in enough to tie in Todoist into deadlines, would be great for that time management part, but will see this week and next how its deadlines option works, but for the most part going to at least work to create a flow in IFTTT for anything put in a “In Progress” list it will create some sort of daily/weekly Todoist check-in notice.

For now, I need food; I should probably put in a daily reminder for that as I keep forgetting to eat! But hopefully, this new tool will help bring some great ideas to life!