PS:327 – Forward.

I know You got this whole thing under control
My soul is untouchable because
You’ve already won me
My victory is not in this flesh and bone
It’s in the cross and I know
Nobody’s taking it from me

It has been a rough week. Yesterday was one of those days where everything that could of went wrong, did. I lost a couple hours of work I could have picked up. That’s a rough one because it seems like lately, the hours are less I can pick up, nothing is coming in on a regular basis.

It’s summer and I try to remember that some folks are simply just not in the “do business” mood, they are on break, they are on vacation, they are out and about. Still rough.

The above song has been playing on repeat lately, it’s just one of those reminders that this life, this flesh, and bone is indeed temporary.  I keep trying to shed stress when and where I can, even tonight here at 2:39 am – unwinding with some tea, some music, working on finishing a website for another 30 minutes, then 30 minutes on editing a video I had hoped to have edited yesterday, then hopefully bed before too long.

I need to knock down a lot of random projects here this week, and at every turn it’s been time on everything else, but did pick up some coding work re-working an entire import system – but I don’t think that’s going to improve itself overnight, nor in a few hours of coding today, so going to focus on my own business for a bit.

Night (or Good Morning) 😀

PS:326 – Passive Income + Writing

As it was told to me the other day “Adulting Sucks.” It really does sometimes. Working to build passive income, and that’s not always easy but I am wanting to do so via a series of blogs and advertising – but honestly? Who has time to write.

Well that’s the plan to make the time and work toward writing at least once a day but I’m looking for something to work as a posting ground in which I can then distribute the post to other blogs, so say for instance I’m writing a something for a tech piece that would fit on this blog and maybe 2 others, simply tag where it posts and boom, everywhere.

I started a review of Thrust Networks website recently and I forgot how much leg work I did towards building the content layout, just need to write it all up and get it online, but honestly the brand name of Thrust Networks  has come on my radar as something I’m considering changing or loosing. There is another Thrust Networks in Sydney, and one in India (which seem to love my Facebook page) but the thing is honestly its always had a connection to the misconception of being a company that deals in porn.

Since the  early days I remember when talking to Ensim (a control panel I first used) the sales rep was hesitant talking to me and said “I don’t think we do business in your industry” and I asked “Shared Hosting?” Well the name set him to think “Thrust” as in Thrusting – maybe it’s time for a change, or a really clean re-brand.

A lot going on, a lot happening – just finished recording an FH Update for July, need to edit it, write up a newsletter, and maybe even sneak in a nap! Not sure how clear this entire blog was, a lot of rambling in this one 😀

PS:325 – New Week.

Well, it’s a fresh week. New options ahead – going to look for a few more places to put my resume at this week, looking for remote work for now, but who knows maybe switch things up and see if I can find something different.

Had a good time with my dad yesterday, saw GOG2 and it was fun, dad enjoyed it too! Grabbed lunch and a few small errands he had on his to-do and since we were out, we knocked em down.

Didn’t get all I had hoped to get done this weekend done, but got some rest, of course, upside down now with rest as its nearly 6 am and I’m still awake.

Hoping this week picks up, a few projects in the wings which I hope can be sorted out and signed off on, one is a good chunk of hours, another is a so-so, and then we’ve got the age ol fun of chasing after bills to be paid by the usual slackers, one is really good he like me gets behind because he has a lot of projects, all it takes is a call and suddenly all payments come in, the other? An AP department that seems to sit on my checks, currently 2 checks behind, would be nice to have those funds.

Anywhoo – a lot on my mind, part of why I can’t seem to get to sleep – I’ve laid down, researched Crypto Currency investing, Linux workstation hardware, and watching Stargate Atlantis – so semi-productive. For now going to lay down for a bit more and see if I can’t get a few hours of sleep, not sure when the girls are coming home – but should be back to a full house again sometime today.

PS:324 – Direction

It has been a crazy summer.  Not easy to find a balance sometimes, but working hard to, my project this weekend has been a bold one. What is it?

Make my office workable.


It’s not that it is impossible to work in here, it’s just I don’t like the layout for productivity. My goal is to make this desk I’m at right now my “get work done” desk. However, I want to swap out the table for a similar build as this desk and have it be more “creative” so writing, designing, and creating.


Going to work on this till about 1 AM tops, tomorrow I am going to enjoy GOG2 with my dad, should be nice to go see a flick with the guy – I do like him 😀

For now going to work on what I can work on, may go get the makings of another door desk tomorrow after the movie, because let’s be honest, what says fun like 105F weather + a 60-80lb door lugged into the house -or- plan B which is sleep 😀

All alone this weekend too, wife and kiddo are at the beach with her mom and sister until Monday, so sadly a bit too quiet here.

PS:323 – Big Oops.

Thankfully it was on my own server on one end, on the other it was new asset set which contains all my artwork and such for new projects, so pulled a backup which had a few files missing which thankfully I was able to re-work a bit, and get all back in place – but still not sure why things were wonky.

I was working just fine on the browser, but apps on Desktop/Mobile both were failing, reviewed logs, reviewed ad firewall, etc. however nothing was being blocked, logs simply showed a 503 (error logs were clean) even debug mode spat out only 1 thing, MySQL wasn’t talking.

So somewhere along the way VestaCP was hiccuping, even had some issues with its config having some instances of 2-3 times the same configuration, I’d clear it manually and then it’d rebuild to the 2-3 times again.

My bright idea was to re-install over the current setup but didn’t imagine it’d clear the admin user. Figured it’d say “Oh there is stuff here.” Nope. It didn’t. Wiped the folder, but in the end with the backup I was able to restore, adding back all of my configurations with Apache in place to handle some things and Nginx just reverse proxy’ing it. Works a lot smoother now, all clients are syncing, SSL is working from Let’s Encrypt – can’t complain.

One reason I was starting to fiddle with things was, I want to see if I can mount B2 as a storage instance. So basically get things off storage on-box, but then have B2 be mounted as my storage for the sync and then just keep updated there – something happens on the server, need to move things, just re-mount elsewhere, install my MySQL dump and life is good.

I need to get some rest, have a hurt shoulder, so rest isn’t too deep, even right now on a big dose of Advil, still hurts, just trying to stick to low-end work with it, yet today did my best to not use it, even bringing in a BIG box, walked it in (and by walk, I mean the box walked back and forth all the way into the house).

Now in “My dad would be proud of me” news, I not only over-did on my truck repair, BUT I fixed it too. I was trying to recharge my AC to take and get the truck running cooler, and to I have Dasiy’s on the docket too – I did mine and low and behold I overfilled. The compressor was working hard (you could hear it) was reading online about one guy who had similar issues and he said if the car was at 1500-2000RPM’s it’d run fine, boy was he right!

So his ultimate solution was to bleed off a bit, so I reviewed how to do so, and I did. Compressor leveled out, didn’t go off/on and the truck wasn’t humid anymore! So score! Cooler running truck, next to do Daisy’s car and all will be chilly with the world again.

Been a mixed week so far, really not feeling good, trying to take it easy, waiting for a big project or two, heck would love to hear back from a job option or two, but waiting, watching, praying, and still trying to get up enough energy and drive in 100F+ heat to have the desire to really do anything at all.

Off I go, going to try and sleep. Praying the pain stops for a bit.

PS:322 – Content Written

I don’t think I have written that much in a long long long time. But I have the base copy written out and ready for some final edits, graphics, then package and cut things over, and to a new entire server for the sites!

Excited about this new setup, about the new pricing, hoping to really have some new packages coming in – a few promo options too which would be nice for some new sign-ups, maybe a landing page or two if I can squeeze it in, but so much to do and I figure I’ll get some sleep if I can get some shoulder pain down.

A productive day and most of it has actually been on the iPad. Even now I am catching up on Doctor Who Season 10 on the TV, the iPad on it’s stand, keyboard on my lap and just typing away on this keyboard been fairly comfy and productive most of the night! Bear (the writing app I use) is getting a lot of use, but I do wish Grammarly was some how tied in, would make proofing a lot easier. 🙂

For now I think I’ll get a few graphics created before I crash out. Night.

PS:321 — Gotta Move

Do you ever feel like you are simply standing still? That may not make sense, imagine you are on the coastline, feet in the water. You don’t move and the sand slowly moves around you covering your feet.  Lately, I feel like that. My feet have been stuck.

However, I have been rocking. I have been trying to get out the rut I am in because it’s sad that rut that says “Never going to change, can’t make it change” – I look at my business and I’ve honestly been a bit saddened by where it’s at.

2 years have gone by and yes my “business” has grown for a time, but it was one big contract, and sadly that contract is drying up more and more, got a good week or two in this month, but even this past week – dry as a bone.  I look at my business and it’s grown some, but honestly, it’s time for a kick in the pants.

This weekend has been about 2 things. Writing & Sleeping. Can’t believe it’s already Sunday, but the goal of this weekend is to FINISH not “get close” or “get distracted” but get it FlockHosting done, new site, new packages I’ve been working on for far too long, get it out there and see where it goes.

I’ve been blessed too that a radio station or two I know are going to create/run radio spots for FlockHosting which is why I want to really get it ready and have it ready for folks to get themselves online.

What about Thrust Networks? The perpetual “Coming Soon Page” – long ago it actually had a website attached to it created by Julie B. back in 2001. It was a great site:

But times changed, the company changed and honestly? I had more activity on FlockHosting, but now the goal is to have a strong presence on each. Really try to amp up a bit to provide some various services from each but growth is needed, moving my feet out of the sand and start walking on the beach.

I have also applied to another job position out and about – hopefully, to replace the current fading job, it’d be nice to really to being a W2’d vs. a 1099’r.

Moving forward. Monday I will have a new site live. No excuses (well short of a sick family member – but one hospital visit is enough for now!)  Thrust Networks Next, to have some gear for Thrust Networks en route too, would love to go to some meetings in town with a cool Thrust Networks Polo 🙂

Gotta keep moving forward, or as Dory would say “Just keep swimming!”

PS:320 – Being Mobile

So a mini-vacation is on-going, sadly it being the middle of the work week it means that my daughter and wife are at the beach right now, and I’m in a hotel room working and waiting on next steps from people for a bit.

This trip I have really not even cracked open the laptop which is rare for me, I am actually completely running on a iPad Pro 10.5 (Sprint LTE) and I have not been disappointed! At first, I figured it’d be nice to have it as a backup, unlimited data on a bigger tablet would mean some work I could do but not all, as coming from a Mini it didn’t have enough room to get me where I needed to be, but honestly the MacBook is sitting in the backpack. It’s only come out to charge devices!

Split screen is amazing as I have had SSH on one side, notes on the other then swap it for a Crisp window/browser/transmit etc. – I am honestly looking forward to iOS11!

So far I am using an older keyboard (Logitech k480) which I picked up on the cheap, however I did order earlier in the week a new keyboard which profile wise is going to be a bit less clunky, more portable, I picked up a Amazon Basics tablet stand and its been awesome! Folds up nicely, so really my mobile work-space has been awesome.

All in all, while I wish I could go play, my compile is coming to an end, and thus writing time is done, I will have to post this later!

// Update – We are home! Nice to still work on the iPad Pro and write up some content, working on some images for a few projects in progress – tired. But probably one of the more workable getaways I’ve ever had, it wasn’t a big hiccup to get out a laptop, get wifi on, hook into my vpn, finding enough room to be comfy, then get another device to read and do research! So again this has been an amazing update to my mobile office.

As this summer goes on, I may find myself at a coffee shop, an office, co-work space etc. just really trying to make myself more mobile than I have been with a BIG bag, literally now it is a small pouch which has charging cable, keyboard, iPad Pro. Lightweight, ultra portable.

PS:319 – Nearly July

Man how time flies! I mean really it flies.

Since I last posted a lot has happened it seems, the big one is 2000+ miles of driving. Bakersfield -> Lake Tahoe -> Oregon -> Washington (dipped our toe in) -> Oregon -> Bakersfield. I might still be a little tired honestly.

I came back to only find myself horribly sick, I think that old joke of “I need a vacation from my vacation!” comes into play here – knocked me flat for sure – bronchitis, pink eye, exhaustion – but I managed to get some rest from the trip it was fun overall, but not looking to do a HUGE drive anytime soon.

Vacations are nice, just one of those “never enough time” type of things, and since I don’t really get a vacation it was some added stress making sure I had data access or at least stable cell service and ate into a 10GB hotspot mode I have – but work continues.

Tonight I took a different jump for things, really wanting to grow the business, and while I found a place that’ll make me some affordable shirts, I have been wanting misc. gear like bags, mugs, hats, phone cases, and one I didn’t think about which was posters, well I did that too:

It’s going to be 17×24! WOOHOO!

Been working also with CRM options, everything I read says “Get one!” and yet, I don’t think I’m there 100% yet, but my live chat provider hooked me up with Beta access to their new CRM-ish features, and must say, looks pretty nice! Plus they are adding video chat and a few other things, so excited there.

Really trying to dial in a lot of things, some side work has picked up, a larger scale project is in the wings, but I think it’s going to be one of more steady dev. vs the big payout after a large programming fest. steady work is nice, but I am really wanting to amp up the hosting fronts and see if I can’t manage a few VPS or Hosting customers here and there and have some more steady income vs. project here or there.

For now, it’s nearly 3 AM, going to wrap it up – thinking of revamping the blog a bit, or really diving into a new URL, TFH is still on my mind, but a lot to do to make it “work” really thinking just dive in, but I need to stabilize a writing day, found sadly it’s a little buggy for me, seems my sign-up with wonky, but hit or miss if I can write and try to keep to a daily writing trend, but it’s the goal! Hopefully, it’ll iron out soon would be nice to have a good writing tool!

Thanks for reading!

ps. Jake – Saw your mom at Lowes she looks good! Plus I got a hug! 😀


PS:318 – Getting No Where Fast.

Phew. What an insane couple of weeks. I’ve done lack of sleep before in my life, but it feels more like the first 6 months of this year have been non-stop.

Work has been a downhill slide lately, customers have been leaving, contracts have slowed (not gone, but GREATLY scaled back), and after hours put in to try and bring things back up and build, I am beat. Tired. Exhausted. Throw in a soon to be 3 years old… Yowza. I’m sleepy.

It’s nearly midnight. This brings about June, the halfway point of this year and honestly? I’m a little discouraged. I know part of it is quite simply my batteries are dead. I’m wiped. Physically and Emotionally. I need a real vacation but sadly with a dip in projects, contracts, and customer payments, it’s not easy at all to say “Let’s go play!” but I’m going to try. Wife is off work soon, and I’m going to go off and “play”.

Vacations are not normal for me because of one simple reason, I’m never off the clock. I’ve mapped out data access, I have the following access while traveling:

  • Cricket (AT&T)
  • Project Fi (Sprint/T-Mobile)
  • Sprint

So looking at the maps, even if I have to bust out a broken Verizon Phone, I can, but hoping that things are mellow-ish, but even over the next 48 hours I’ve got some projects to put some hours into and hopefully folks pay promptly.

I’m trying to fire up my sites, however my biggest problem is quite simply content. I could write volumes about other companies, but it comes to my own? My words are gone. I need to find a good time to just write, in fact I am going to try and write some tonight and get Flock done, but Thrust is another bird all-together.

Lots to do, no real gumption to do it, looking for some good tools to help organize and get things together, Bear does a good job, but sadly its not cross platform to Linux/Windows/Android, if it made apps I could sync my info via Dropbox and access things on other platforms? Oh I’d be in love and use it even more.

I’m going to wrap up, eyes are getting sleepy, going to try starting June off with some sleep, or at least try to! Happy June!