Just being Silly…. That’s my Lilly <3

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Lilly coming up on a year old has left me with a number of journeys with this kid – wouldn’t trade a minute of screaming nights or fussy moods, she’s my beautiful girl who more days than frowns choose to shine those beautiful big eyes and smile that ever-increasing toothy grin 🙂

We hit the big 1-year-old this month! Sharing a birthday with 2 other family members, but they all don’t mind to share 🙂 This kid is growing like a weed and eating like a kid twice her size! Love her to pieces my lil Lilly Grace!

Being Still.

It’s not always easy to just let go, in the end it’s so much easier, but really who is ever still? This video is a great reminder and I sing it in the truck as Lilly sings along:

A powerful song by Jeremy Camp, the lyrics are beautiful and remind me that sometimes I just need to be still and let God be God.

The Lyrics:

“Be Still”

Lord help me now to face this battle
My strength has failed and my eyes can’t see
Through the waves of doubt that take me under
In the chaos I hear you speak

Be still and know that You are my God
Be still and know that You are enough
Though my heart is racing still You’re in control
Be still and know that You are my God

You brought me rest in times of struggle
I lay my head down at Your feet
The storm in me that I can’t wrestle
Is calmed when I hear you speak

You are faithful
And Your love endures forever
Yes, Your love endures forever
You are able
In You I’ll stand forever
Yes, in You I’ll stand forever
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Though my heart is racing still You’re in control. That’s something I lose site of too often, and sometimes I have to remind myself that indeed God is in control, and I need to let go of the reigns of my life and let Him lead where I don’t know to even tread. God is Good.
Be blessed folks! Thanks for reading!

2013 down… bring on 2014!

So what did you do last year? Oh nothing much, just changed my entire life around 🙂

Ah it has been quiet around here on the blog, a lot going on behind the scenes, a lot of things changing, and a lot of things in the works – 2013, what a year! Some losses, but some amazing gains – May not of been picture perfect the entire year but it was the start of something amazing, something of a journey the likes of which I’ve never experienced.

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Who would of thought at the start of 2013 I’d end the year with a beautiful wife? Not I. I started the year off thinking it’d be a year like any other! Me and Tim vs. The World!  Sadly Tim didn’t make the entire journey of 2013, I miss the guy still and tear up when thinking of our entirely too brief journey together, but I love the fact that his ginger awesomeness was with me even for the season that it was, he helped me through some rough days, and he’s up in heaven awaiting for the day to hang out with me again!

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2014 brings about a lot of changes without a doubt! Married for only 2 months as of Today! So much has happened and so much more is to come, so much I thought I understood and planned for and yet, I’m realizing I have yet to learn or fully be prepared for, but such is life, it’s a journey and I am going to enjoy it!

waitingpage2014 will have my business changing again, already drafted up the paperwork for some BIG changes in how I do business, hopefully all wrapped up in the first quarter of this year – from business status, to business credit card processing, you name it, a LOT is in transition! Going to see some new projects come online, some new ideas fly with how I work from home and more – this year is going to be HUGE with change!

Married life will change in 2014, still bringing our lives together from cell phone plans, internet access, even cooking! It’s a lot of learning more and more and more and more about each other! I have a lot to learn myself, and I’m doing my best to listen and learn!

Daisy and I are also doing a bit of bible challenge for ourselves, by doing the ENTIRE BIBLE in a year! (Link to the reading plan) Quite the undertaking and commitment, but the reading schedule is pretty well structured and if you’re even on the go you can simply goto the page and it links to the chapters directly for easy reading from your computer/smartphone – Join us!

The year behind and a new year ahead, even now my Facebook quote is so true even more so:

sometimes life isn’t what you expected, sometimes the greatest joys bring the worst hurts, sometimes the worst hurts bring the greatest joys. all things in their time, change can be good if you let it be.

While 2013 wrapped up maybe not exactly how I ever imagined it would end in the start of 2013, but I am excited and blessed by what it has started and what it will move 2014 to be – just have to remember to breathe, pray and keep moving forward.

Hope you all are starting a great 2014! Start it with prayer and focus on God for all things in your life and I hope to hear that your 2014 is going amazing! If it’s not post a comment and let me know how I can pray for you!

Married Life!

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It has been a while! Seems like life just keeps going and going and going! If you’re a friend on Facebook you likely know the news. I got married!

We toyed with dates, tried to come up with the perfect day again and again we’d plan big, we’d scale down small, then just core people! Oh we had paper with names jotted down, had catering costs, church costs, destination weddings – you name it! And in the end, all of that planning we said our vows at our church with the Pastor and 2 witnesses.

We’ve had quite the adventure in our first week of marriage, and now into week three, the adventure continues! We have been moving me in, cleaning, rearranging, fixing up and settling into living together! I’ve been enjoying cooking, made some tasty enchiladas last night (if I do say so myself, Daisy did too!) 🙂

I’ve really found it neat to talk to folks who recount to me the way things came together:

Was so excited when I saw you were engaged, then it was like no time at all and it was MARRIED that’s so cool, I’m so happy!

I know in my family there were longer engagements but for us it’s worked. Are we perfect? Nope! But we have three things going for us, Love for God and Love for Each Other and We’re just awesome people 😀

We have so much going on, trying to get 2 people to fit in a house (I have stuff…) lol but too catching up on sleep! We’ve literally been go go go since Day 1 (Daisy even got in a half marathon!), I’ll rest soon enough! But going to ask openly and honestly for your continued prayers! Been quite the journey so far, and more amazing things to come! As my laundry is going in the garage, and load of dishes going in the kitchen, was time for a quick break, but back to it! Need to go do some running around, already grabbed our new devotional and want to get some more milk! 😀

Hope everyone is having a blessed day!

Remembering Tim.

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He started out as such a tiny little ball of fur, thus why I went with the name Tim, he was my Tiny Tim. So tiny that he fit in one hand, and my special friend had some missing toes, and some back legs which weren’t perfect, but he was my little ginger buddy.

I remember I had a photo shoot the day Sharlie brought him over, she told me he was in need of some TLC and knew compared to a family with kids, I’d be one to take care of the little guy and make sure he got the care he needed.

He was tired, he was anxious, so he found a corner under my living room lamps and curled up into a small happy ball of fur. I went off to to a photo-shoot only to return to a cat perched on the couch saying “Where have you been?!” a behavior that continued for his entire life.

Tim was a good little cat, and he quickly grew into a big cat, with a tail that GREW bigger than he was, even the neighborhood kids loved his tail, even recently my uncle called Tim a “Cat Fox” as his tail was so big and poofy!

tim-headQuite the Facebook cat, many have watched the little guy grow from that little curious face above into the  full grown nap taking friend who has been through the crazy things of life, he was there when my job ended @ MLS, he was there after 5k’s and trips, he was always excited to see me and would follow me around for days after coming home to make sure I didn’t leave again.

Many have asked what happened, and I honestly don’t know, he went from earlier in the day tromping around in the backyard with mom to being weak, wobbly, and sore. He was sleeping a lot, and I came home to find him just breathing hard and not feeling to good – but as I have had cats in our family over the years figured “He’ll bounce back” as he’s been puny before and done fine, but as the day progressed he wasn’t doing too good, and after I woke up from nap, he cried a little as I came to see what was up and was petting him with mom, he took his last breath and was gone.

I’ve had my moments already, asked God why, been a little angry that this little guy would have to leave me so quickly, and yet I have a peace knowing that God put Tim in my life for a reason, to see me through some tough and lonely days, to be there and welcoming to me, to give me love – as my mom pointed out he was truly My Cat.

I’m sad. I can’t deny that, haven’t cried this much in ages, with my parents help we laid Tim to rest, said my goodbyes, Daisy came over to sit with me and hear stories, and just hold my hand as I cried. I’ve looked at a lot of old photos, since that  day in May over a year ago, when a little ginger man entered my life and found a spot where he could stay and be a friend that was always there when I came home, now He’s up in heaven once again waiting for me to come home.

I miss you Tim.

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Resting on my chest 🙂

Good Foundations

Sometimes I truly lose sight of how blessed I truly am! How is it that a little rock of the boat can suddenly make me lose sight of what I’ve been blessed with? Sadly it’s possible, and happens now and again, waves keep crashing and my faith is chipped away at, but today God’s shown Me that I am blessed very clearly.

A while back my debit card which is attached to my business funds was stolen somehow and used to go on a shopping spree, and thru it all I was blessed, things went smoothly and money was given back – well recent the card was up to its old tricks! When I get a new card they reset security settings so when a big server bill attempts to go through it stops it. So this month I’m on my second round of hiccups! So what does the server company have to say about my lack of payment due to card issues?

Hi Chuck,

No worries, you’ve been a great client with us for such a long time! If they need me to do anything on my end, just let me know.

Foundations. I sometimes forget the things God has built up and put into place to give me graces and mercies where many would of never given them. The company honestly doesn’t owe me a grace, yet they have given them as my relationship with their company spans back to honestly their start and has continued for years, and I have a fair relationship with management and much of the support staff.

I have a strong foundation of friendships and family too – many who’ve been supportive from support in prayer, an open ear, help out of moving from the apartment, giving me a place to live for a while as I figure out a wedding date 🙂 and so much more, I am truly blessed as how many out there don’t always have these sorts of help.

Things have been a little rough this past month in the transition of living places, getting used to schedules, having an alarm cat which alerts the world if I’m 30 seconds or more past my curfew 🙂 but it’s all leveling out, and I’m slowly but surely getting back up to steam!

Continued prayers are appreciated for sure! That foundations built will hold, that things will balance out and that things will just continue to get better and better! Have a few resumes floating around for some additional work, so prayers for that + growth for FH & TN would be GREAT! If you need help with a web project do let me know! For now, have a great day all!

RB3 @ Andrew's Baby Shower!
RB3 @ Andrew’s Baby Shower!

Hello… My name is Inigo Montoya

Or so I probably would’ve told you yesterday! (Don’t worry, You didn’t kill my father , so prepare to live!) It has been a busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy week! I’ve been cleaning, packing, sorting, throwing away and trying to get things all ready to go – but forgetting things small things like rest, rest, and well rest. I even forgot to eat the other day – so a tad focused on things, which has helped create some pretty rough exhaustion!

But last night got some quality sleep! So good I overslept and missed morning prayer & devotional with Daisy! (DOH!) Don’t worry though I’ve done my morning bible time & prayed for her, but we’ll be doing devotional & prayer a little bit later today 🙂

Today though is a busy one, the kitchen will be… No matter what…. 100% done today, and the bathroom and Office. Still will have big furniture in all awaiting the move to in most cases Mom and Dad’s with me, but some items may make the move to Daisy’s to live there for the mean time – but should be able to make the Saturday key-turn-in!

Really been a deep cleaning process – not just a wipe down and throw in a box, but rather “Do I need this?” followed by “Can I sell this?” and in some cases the answer to both is no! So a LOT of tossing, I’ve gone through a lot of stuff and just got rid of many things!

So things are moving forward, prayers are appreciated for my energy level! Work to keep up with too – thankfully customers are AMAZING and being very patient and relaxed, but come Monday, that will change and have me kicking right back into work full time again during the day! (Okay okay maybe a BIG nap day Monday!) 😀 but things will balance out and come together for sure! Thanks for reading!

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A fond farewell!

My apartment was a big journey for Me. It was moving from the home I grew up in which I lived in as a child, grew into as an adult and lived in on my own, to gain back a room mate of a sister, then further still have my parents move back in, to transition to a place of my own with two bedrooms, a bath, and a mellow little patio area.

Mr. Chuck’s place, The Rootbeer Recovery Center, Cousin Hangout, Bible Study Group, and many other things has this place been called, but for me it’s been home for a little over 5 years, what a journey of annoying neighbors, fighting, police going door to door, fireworks setting off car alarms, but too friendships and good neighbors – and use of the apartment to have bible study’s, youth kids crash for a movie, and let’s not forget the latest addition, a ginger cat named Tim who made this place his home (more like his castle!)

I’ve been breaking down the living room, going to box up movies and games, I have a broken PS3 I plan to sell for parts on eBay, but the goal is to have the living room cleared out entirely by Saturday to allow me to stage other rooms to empty out and be done with, but making piles of keep which will move with me to the parents place (my place of residence until getting married – ah I miss my room mates there), piles for Yard Sale, and too a BIG bunch of clothes going for Goodwill.

So a lot going on! We are working on the details of the wedding, and doing our best to plan between things like work and school — oh responsibility! 😀 but we are doing good, getting things ready! Now we just have to find a date that works, and fits where God wants us to be! God is good though, this apartment has been home, but as I prepare to build a home with Daisy, a few months of saving and not having bill of two houses, I can save a bit towards our wedding and fixing up our home! Moving Forward with God! Good Stuff for sure!

DVD's packed and ready to go!
DVD’s packed and ready to go!