I’m tired. It’s 3 AM on a Saturday, and let’s just say the amount of stress and things to do this week reached a point in which I was laid out after a dentist visit.
Now nothing happened other than a quick check, then a referral to get a CT scan on a tooth to see what’s going on with my poor teeth – but I came home, tried to work, and just finally ended up laying down and sleeping.
My life has been nuts this year so far, changes in finances, changes in temp, changes in me. I’m tired. I hurt. I’m not always cheerful, but God is still God, and that’s a big thing of what keeps me going.
Right now this very moment? I would rather be sleeping, but instead a break from work, I wish I could push it off, I wish I could disconnect and take a vacation, but sadly? Not in the cards for me. Instead of working through the night to early morning to pay the bills, I’d love to go on a walk, a drive, something not in front of a computer.
I know I’m on the verge of burn out again, things like a random ex-customer leaving a 1-star review and a complaint about a lost live chat session knock me down a bit more than they should, but lately my victory list seems small, so I take the short list and thank God for where I can find the good.
A better balance is needed. Not sure how I can make the changes to make life run smoother, but right now – I’m leaning on God and going to get back to work so that I can go to sleep before I see the sun rising.