Sick to save a buck!

So not feeling too great today, did manage to still make a call I had, which something about being in tech mode another part of my brain takes over and just goes without delay – wish it worked that way everyday lol. But seems the Jr. Burger Lilly didn’t eat last night was what threw me over the edge – but I saved that money. 😀

Woke up around 630 feeling horrible, didn’t leave the bathroom until maybe 8 am, then passed out for an hour or two, was not a fun morning, but hoping things improve!

Today really focusing a bit on my own projects. Work lately has been slow, mainly because when you take nearly 2 months off to move – folks can’t find you and find other options, so hoping I can really dial things back in, get my own projects rolling to improve finances, but tomorrow once I feel better and can talk “job”, I hope to nail down some job options.

I love working in my own business, but I have applied a few places here and there trying to nail down some steady work, like a 9-to-5, but if I can get my own projects rolling, invest real time into them, might be able to get things rolling without it.

For now, back to resting.

PS:363 – Lowered Sugar

So my RBS has been going down. One morning it was 304 – 20 days later and on meds for only 3 days – my new RBS in the AM was 171! Down 133. Boom!

Tomorrow in the morning I go to do my blood work they requested, hoping maybe it’ll paint a better picture of why the levels have been what they are, the meds, however, are indeed helping! So happy to see levels lowering. While still high, hopefully, a trend we can keep with these meds and really help get me back in shape again walking and being active as lately its been a lot of sitting.

I do need to go find something to eat, may tear up my salad today as it sounds good, but been a slow day, but as of about 20 minutes ago it started perking up, some work coming down the pipeline, so here we go!

PS:362 – New Meds, New Site, New Year

So the doctor’s visit went okay. Really liked the new doc, I’ve met a few over the years and I’m honestly going to see if this guy can be my GP – I honestly haven’t felt like a doc actually heard me and answered my questions, this guy heard my concerns, answered my questions, and even gave me a newer med and teamed it up with the metformin to see if we can’t get the sugar under control, and gave me a new BP med which got my body to relax so much that last night I crashed out SUPER early – 9hr 45 minutes of sleep according to the fitbit.

Working hard on FlockHosting.com and ThrustNet.com this week, hoping to create a lot simpler set of sites, nail things down and make it concise and to the point, no more wordy pages, just what I offer, to the point, keep it simple, no hard to manage designs, easy to add if I need to, and simple to remove too.

2018 is rapidly approaching. A lot of things I want to see this coming year, and with 3 posts left in my commitment to post daily for a year, I’m really missing the steady flow as I’ve been writing these past few days, helps me get things out of my head and makes it more real if that makes any sense – journal is one thing, still great for things not ready for prime time, but online blog really makes it more “out there”, something about that is therapeutic to me.

For now, back to it, got swim lessons tonight with the kiddo, and night 2 of new meds, so we shall see how the RBS (Resting Blood Sugar) looks in the AM, this morning 201, still high, but for my mornings? Actually lower than just metformin! So improvement, hoping day two is even more!

PS:314 – 51

When I started the Post Something (PS) idea , it was for 365 days. Straight. Well life has happened, and while best intentions of getting in a post a day, I’ve fallen short. If all had gone well, I’d of been done on 01/18/2017, however here we are 04/17/2017 (A few days late… right.)

I wish I could say there were valid reasons, and I’m sure there were – marriage, kiddo, family, work, sure sure, lots of options of why – but if it’s a must, then it should of been a must. I failed. Plain and simple. But like the Jamaican Bobsled Team in Cool Runnings (Thanks Netflix!) , I’m going to carry myself across the finish line and that’s 51 more posts. That’s it. Now from beyond that? Not sure how it’ll continue, likely just back to posting occasionally.

Been working on taxes (yes last minute) fighting fatigue and stress at the moment, just seems like I’m going upstream without a paddle, but ran very rough numbers, and I think I’m going to be okay. I have my $800 check set aside for the LLC minimum tax, just have to organize my numbers, which is pretty much some of my night while I wait on a few reboots/tweaks on servers, and hopefully not the entire day tomorrow. I’d love to get things setup with an accountant, I’d love to hand it off, but part of me is thinking of too maybe re-branding. Thrust Networks has always gotten me a lot of strange looks. Maybe time to shutter it, start a new name, and start the books off fresh with someone who can help me get it setup, help me streamline and make it all easier to manage year-to-year – two birds, one stone.

A lot of options on the horizon, taxes off that horizon helps a lot, a lot of changes, a lot of things in motion, I’d love to see more business growth, I’d love to have a simple tax system in the US of “You made $3 million dollars? You owe $1000.” lol something simple, I hate this overly complex system, and while companies like Turbo Tax do help cut through some of it, I’d just as soon not deal with it – so re-working the entire system sounds like a good plan on my side, just finding the way to do it, thats the big “How do I?” question.

Going to bed soon I hope, for now, back to work.

PS:100 – A hundred days.

100 days since I started this. A lot has happened since the start of this year, and this year is barely getting started.

I am tired. Insanely tired. I feel like work never stops, like battles never end, like I can’t get ahead of the mountain of bad, no matter how much good I throw at it. No matter how much I strive to create, things fail, no matter how much I love, it falls short. I’m tired of losing.

Changes are underway to try and create. To build. To mend. But it never seems to get traction. Like a truck in a runaway truck ramp, you can put as much pressure on the pedal to move, and you just go deeper and deeper.

What do I want to see the next 100 days present on this blog? Change. Growth. Traction. I want to see things improve vs. continue to go down. I want to create and inspire; I want to see my life mean something to people, that my words, my creations, my life shine through what God can do with a broken down old 36-year-old.

I want to find hope again. Not this slowly fading candle of hope I’ve hung on to that says “don’t let me go out!” I want to let it burn out; I want to live and have a renewed joy, renewed peace, renewed hope. I want not just to fake it trying to make it, but actually, honestly make it.

Change is coming. Just got to let the one who can do something with this broken lump of goo, work. Move over Chuck, let’s let life begin.