April 17+1 (New Tax Day)

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So it appears that Monopoly wasn’t far off. Bank error in my favor? Kind of lol. The IRS had some issues with their site and in turn, the 17th is now the 18th for taxes due.

I keep trying to get ahead, but this year I don’t think I’m going to wait, literally next week I’m going to find some sort of accounting software that’s a tad more robust than spreadsheets, something that can track things and it will mean a bit more leg work, but I’d much rather get more put away in savings this next year + bank more towards taxes, this year I actually didn’t come down to the wire, I had my funds already set aside, but I’d like more breathing room.

Too I’m trying to figure out how I can work Church Hosting better, I’ve considered Non-Profit, but at this point with tax law changing for 2018 taxes, non-profit giving may not be a benefit anymore, so those tithes and various causes a friend asks you to support on Facebook, will be a thing of the past, so the idea of making Church Hosting a non-profit, won’t have many benefits to getting businesses to jump on board I’d imagine. No perk for them.

But I’m praying on it, working on it. Tomorrow I’ll submit, I figured since I had a rough day (been feeling off lately) I didn’t want to push it too much, sure I have 13 minutes left before midnight, but better to wrap this tomorrow with a fresh head and just call it good. Profits growing, pretty much every year, however, I’d love to see them grow enough to add an employee, or at least employ myself as a W2’d employee.

For now, time to wrap things up, after I hit submit in the AM and e-File it all away, I’m off to coding, doc writing, and working on wrapping up some projects that have been waiting for me to wrap this, then if I can get it done before swim class, I may find something completely mindless to do – do they still have those movie theatre places? 😀 Night all.

Diabetic Road: The Average that Was.

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So I had achieved an average 30 days of 130 blood sugar! I was so excited! Then I hit 3 days of spikes. Now it’s gone.

But it’s back on track this morning with a waking sugar of 119! I am trying to wrap up here shortly to get to bed, trying hard to get sleep in order if I can, as that has seemed to help, but too finding anything that has corn in it and trying to reduce intake – that’s helped greatly.

I’ve also added Mustard to my mix of supplements as eating a hotdog which should spike my sugars actually seemed to lower, the mix of relish + mustard galore is the only thing I could figure out over research that a bad eating choice as some would say ended in my sugars lowered, Mustard will do that, and so I’ve added that in and it really seems to help more than the previous suggestion of Fenugreek from my optometrist.

I don’t want to supplement my way to health still trying to eat healthily, proteins, smaller portions but more meals, good fiber intake and leafy greens (aka BIG salad!) – I do need to find more veggies I can stomach, but never been a big veggie guy, so salad, carrots, definitely my go-to.

This week wraps up a mildly stressful week, actually wrapped a call tonight on a potential programming gig, would be some decent money, a lot of time, but decent money – so that’s nice and yet some stress if it comes in, I’d have a little over a month to get it done.

I’ve tried to keep stress to a minimum when and where I can at the advice of the endocrinologist and diabetic coach, been thinking about maybe heading back to counseling, I found it useful – I’ve tried online, but something about being face to face with someone to talk it out vs typing it out, but trying to make sure I’m keeping stress down, happy up.

For now, it’s 1 AM and I’m going to call it good before someone emails in needing something lol. Night.

Time for a Tech Yard Sale?

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I think it might be.

I’ve managed to get myself a small pile of tech, some of it was given to me, some was purchased, but with all of it nowadays, it has no direct use.

I have some tablets and laptops which need new homes. I’m trying to decide how to go about selling these things. I’ve considered eBay for a few items, but most are still working hardware just not actively in my workflow anymore, and while some day some of it could be? I’m looking to offload it.

I’ve considered too Facebook’s selling area, or even OfferUp – so there are some options but stay tuned, likely in the next few weeks going to be some items up for grabs.

New Year, New Directions

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So here we are nearly a month down and a lot has gone on, tried a new med or two in the diabetic world, Trulicity is the latest which has had some mixed results, but I am down 10lbs in 2 weeks… so if nothing else it was great for weight loss!

I am once again sitting on the edge of “Where do I go from here?” in the realm of tech. Mac world is really not something I find myself saying “Oooo let’s go buy a new laptop!” nor desktop, nor really any Mac device, it just seems “bleh” to me, and yet the thing that really has caught my eye is Chromebook once again. Writing this post on an ASUS C200M which has Android apps which amazingly lets me do things like JuiceSSH and Slack – so very nice, may invest later this year in a more modern non-beta based Chromebook (Samsung’s Chromebook Pro maybe…)

And business-wise, still in limbo when it comes to a steady job, this past week I had the talk again about getting hired, supposed to have folks get back to me on Monday with more, and the position may be something that has grown as a few other people at the company are gone and I might be required to fill in a few more pairs of boots, so we shall see how that goes.

But things are in motion hopefully for a BIG February, the big 38 this year, and already trying to build up some hype with one of my yearly specials for FlockHosting, but too I am hoping to launch FlockHosting.com’s update as well as get something simple online for Thrust Networks before I turn 38, the two sites need facelifts, and I hope to get things rolling on them soon.

Really thinking 2018 will be a big year of change. Not just a feeling of “hope” but a feeling of desire to have some things change up, really be a big different year. I want lots of good things, many blessings and a lot of growth.

For now? Back to fixing a slew of issues for customers that happened yesterday while I was down sick. Happy 2018 all.

Hope.

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Lately, in this wacky world we live in, I don’t see a lot of hope. Some blame our president, some blame a skin color, some blame God, some blame the person next to them. Honestly? It’s my fault. It’s your fault. We have all lost hope.

Our previous president was embodied as “Hope” – it was hope for change, it was hope for the future. For many of his followers, that hope he created, quickly went away when he left office, but after all, things said and done he was and is just a man. If you misplaced hope in someone who could fail. Who had a limited time in power, who may of went left instead of sticking right, we’re all human! It happens.

Do you want to see a better world? Want to see things better? Don’t expect the current president to fix it for you. He isn’t your hope, nor is he your destroyer. He’s a man. Flawed, broken, and too is going to make good things, and bad things. Not here to debate what he’s done good or bad – because as with anyone on the left, right or middle can say about ANY president – but Trump isn’t my hope nor was Obama.

Lately, I find myself looking for hope in what intake into my mind, my heart, my life. From stories to music, and I find myself in stories of hope, all of which start with us looking to the light, not towards the dark – that never-ending battle of good over evil. The Machine vs. Samaritan (Person of Interest), Kevin doing for others (Kevin Probably Saves the World), Crowder singing about where his hope is in the song above, to Mercy Me telling us in the dark, we can hold on to hope in him (Even If).

It hasn’t been what I would call an easy few years for me, friends moved on, life changed, health took a plunge and my connection to life has changed drastically. How do you find hope in what you know as your world – which just crumbles in front of you? You’re told you’re bad, you’re told your stupid, and told your health is crumbling – Diabetic, High Cholesterol, Dangerously High Blood Pressure – and let’s not leave out a business which has had its share of dings. Where do you find hope?

Honestly, I’d love to write that I was the good Christian boy, that I said “Yay God!” in all moments, but I’m not. I’m human. I’m flawed. I made choices, which brought me to this day where I am right now. And what can I say today after these hard years and maybe more hard years to come? God is Love, and in His Love, there is hope.

Today I write not hiding behind some magical and happy life that I post daily on Social Media that is fake, today I write as a guy who’s fighting uphill to get where God would have me. Not where I’d like to be always, but taking that step into the fire knowing that he won’t let me get burned, but I may feel a little heat, I may break a sweat, but even through all of this, through 400+ blood sugars, to heart rates that likely if had been higher would of sent me to a hospital, from fights in my marriage, fears in my child not coming into this world, to words spoken to me in “love” stabbing deeply and abandoning me – I’m still standing.

I may be light in a few areas of my life, I may not be driving a sports car, I may not have the supports or same outlook as to where my life was going, I’m standing.  I am watching a 3 yr old grow into an amazing life, I’m watching a marriage with fewer fights,  I’m seeing blood sugars lowering down to 110.  I’m seeing me stronger. Maybe not as quickly as some felt it needed to be, maybe not how quickly as it was supposed to be – but I’m human, I’m flawed.

2017 is quickly coming to an end and like Job the end of this tale where many times I feel like was told to “Curse God and Die” by so many areas of my life, I’m happy to report I did not, and I’m looking forward to restoration. To seeing how God can continue to redeem my life, redeem what I’ve lost even more. Yes I know so many of us can say we feel like Job – I know so many people I’ve talked to over the years have gone through their own Job Season – I think for many of us we do, not everyone does in this life and that’s one of those “Questions for Heaven” an old Pastor I knew used to talk about, but he also reminded us no matter the trial and tribulation we went through in this life, his God. My God. Is there besides us.

I’m thinking this will be my last post for 2017, I’m hoping to continue writing about my journey in 2018, but I’m going to focus my creativity, my energy, my life into building the things God’s laid in my lap these past few weeks, focus on exercise, on eating better, on building – so I wish you all who actually read this a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. See you in 2018.

Sick to save a buck!

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So not feeling too great today, did manage to still make a call I had, which something about being in tech mode another part of my brain takes over and just goes without delay – wish it worked that way everyday lol. But seems the Jr. Burger Lilly didn’t eat last night was what threw me over the edge – but I saved that money. 😀

Woke up around 630 feeling horrible, didn’t leave the bathroom until maybe 8 am, then passed out for an hour or two, was not a fun morning, but hoping things improve!

Today really focusing a bit on my own projects. Work lately has been slow, mainly because when you take nearly 2 months off to move – folks can’t find you and find other options, so hoping I can really dial things back in, get my own projects rolling to improve finances, but tomorrow once I feel better and can talk “job”, I hope to nail down some job options.

I love working in my own business, but I have applied a few places here and there trying to nail down some steady work, like a 9-to-5, but if I can get my own projects rolling, invest real time into them, might be able to get things rolling without it.

For now, back to resting.

The other side of posting…

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So here we are, a year of posting is done, granted it wasn’t 100% a solid day-for-day year, but it’s done.

Excited day for me, seeing even lower blood sugar today, and yet tomorrow is the big day in which I go from the base dosage of the new med to the full dosage. 10mg -> 25mg – If I’ve seen a HUGE drop in sugar already should be interesting to see how a full dosage leaves me, will it be like coming off a drug (sugar) for so long my body is in “normal” ranges might be rough for a few days.

I have a meeting on Monday that should give me some direction for 2018 I hope, some projects to take on for a company I’ve been doing work for, should have more direction after a call tomorrow I hope. Then again, their track record sadly it may not ever happen – so not completely holding my breath.

It’s also another day switched over to Android (S8+) vs my previous iPhone 7+ – I’m pretty happy so far, I’ll feel a bit more confident once my screen protector and case come in, as it stands a tad slippery for my tastes, but aside from that the phone performs pretty well. I do miss Stripe having an app, but not a show stopper as I made some rules to send my phone a notification when payments come in which will work same as the email but more in real-time.

So things are moving forward, again don’t think I’ll do a PS: subject any longer, but my goal is to try and make a post daily.

PS:365 – It is finished.

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An idea that was supposed to be wrapped up January 18th, 2017, went on a bit long. Such is life I suppose! You think “Oh I’ll write tonight” then you hit 2 server outages, 5 tickets, a sick kid, and a family trip all in the same 23 seconds. Foof.

I think I’m going to keep it going though – I want to keep it simple, I want to write every day because honestly, I need to keep clearing the old brain. We shall see!

For now, though the 365 posts I wanted to get out in 2016->2017 – is now done in nearly 2018 😀 Joys of life.

PS:362 – New Meds, New Site, New Year

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So the doctor’s visit went okay. Really liked the new doc, I’ve met a few over the years and I’m honestly going to see if this guy can be my GP – I honestly haven’t felt like a doc actually heard me and answered my questions, this guy heard my concerns, answered my questions, and even gave me a newer med and teamed it up with the metformin to see if we can’t get the sugar under control, and gave me a new BP med which got my body to relax so much that last night I crashed out SUPER early – 9hr 45 minutes of sleep according to the fitbit.

Working hard on FlockHosting.com and ThrustNet.com this week, hoping to create a lot simpler set of sites, nail things down and make it concise and to the point, no more wordy pages, just what I offer, to the point, keep it simple, no hard to manage designs, easy to add if I need to, and simple to remove too.

2018 is rapidly approaching. A lot of things I want to see this coming year, and with 3 posts left in my commitment to post daily for a year, I’m really missing the steady flow as I’ve been writing these past few days, helps me get things out of my head and makes it more real if that makes any sense – journal is one thing, still great for things not ready for prime time, but online blog really makes it more “out there”, something about that is therapeutic to me.

For now, back to it, got swim lessons tonight with the kiddo, and night 2 of new meds, so we shall see how the RBS (Resting Blood Sugar) looks in the AM, this morning 201, still high, but for my mornings? Actually lower than just metformin! So improvement, hoping day two is even more!

PS:358 – A month later…

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Oi. Moved. Done. Not completely unpacked/organized or fully setup – but the other house is done.

I’m tired. Very tired, but works never stops, life doesn’t stop.

So here I am on my laptop as my desktop is once again completely messed up, sadly the world of Hackintosh has left me with a kernel panic and a non-working station, which sucks, and I’m considering re-building from scratch or making a Linux workstation that just simply rocks.

The world of Mac may not be something I’m going to stick around with too long – but then again time will tell – but for now some code to work on tonight for a few projects, going to write a HUGE script that imports data raw from CSV -> SQL to make it accessible to re-generate content for a site as needed, because as it stands it requires a re-import 5000+ items, and that is time-consuming when only a single item is the issue, a full re-import can take up to a few hours especially when its re-processing all item photos.

For now – work, laundry, sleep (eventually).