PS:9 – 18 Months

Hi, I’m Chuck, and I’m 437 Months old. When I say: Lilly is 18 months old! Oh, how people get excited. I get stories of “Oh I remember when my baby was that age!” or “2’s are coming.” Just something not so cool about being 437 months old. Oh well.

Lilly hit the big 18 and is doing good. As I write this, she’s sleeping taking in the rest as this kid is always going it seems! But in 6 months I will indeed have a 2-year-old! That’s just plain awesome. She’s growing up fast, but so far I’m enjoying it and not dreading it. I do tell her to stop growing, but she just says “tooka tooka tooka” and goes on playing!

Pictures were taken and here’s one I’ll share:

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Can’t wait for this little girl to grow and get to know her even more as her personality just keeps shining through!

 

Being a dad.

402 days ago I didn’t have any idea what I was doing. What’s changed since then? I get even less sleep.

When Lilly was born life wasn’t the best, business was failing, life was stressful. Never did I imagine that afternoon going into the hospital, I would end up, meeting Lilly Grace.

As a kid I’ve always imagined being a dad. My dad was pretty awesome, supportive, loving, and always an open ear (even to this day!) and I hoped I could share that with my own kids.

You know what they say, it’s nothing like you plan. NICU for a week, constipation, gas, urgent care visit. I don’t think I ever considered that is what my parents went through. If it was even half of what I’ve gone through, they need more hugs, as do I.

Lilly is a daddy’s girl through and through, I’m sure she’ll go through her mommy’s girl phase in time. For now though we hang out and play through the day, and every night I sing, talk, and pray with her as we get ready for bed.

I didn’t plan for anything I’ve gone through, not a thing. But when I babble with her, or share a drink, sandwich, Jamba Juice, you name it. Planning doesn’t matter. It’s that moment. That single moment in time. And it’s awesome.

She’s sleeping right now and I’m trying to do an ounce of work and write a bit, but when they say life changes with kids? They aren’t lying.

Today’s picture is Lilly @ 1 day old, precious little feet 🙂 <3

Webhosting is a Blessing!

13 years and counting. Hard to believe that its only been 13 years! Feel like the spirit of what FlockHosting does has been around a lot longer! I started helping Christian bands ages ago my old friend Pete Prevost before he was in Sanctus Real was in a band called “Johnny Come Lately”, I remember all those years ago building a page for the payment of … Taco Bell.

Well in some ways not much has changed, FlockHosting is an act of love, hosting over 100+ churches (looking forward to doing more!), I have customers all over the world and others here at home!

I’ve been insanely blessed, sure I’d love to see it produce a bit more income, but when you hear things like this:

Thanks so much for providing this service, we’re seeing new people come to our church just because they could find us on the internet when they move to the area and see what we do. I hope God is blessing you in all the work you do. – Andy C.

Wow. Plain wow. This is what I’ve always wanted to see folks do with FlockHosting, sure I have Thrust Networks which is the real core company, it’s the LLC everything is under, and operates, but honestly I love doing this ministry to churches.

I want to grow FlockHosting even more, I’d love to see it really just spring into action but the world of Shared Hosting slows down, as more and more companies offer the design, hosting, etc. all in one price, and I don’t have 3,000 employees – but who knows maybe I can find a way like I mention in the recent FlockUpdate doing some design at affordable rates (not the $10,000+ you see some places) but keeping it affordable and looking good! So some challenges ahead!

God is Good, and just give Him the entire business to do with as He sees fit!

Remembering Tim.

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He started out as such a tiny little ball of fur, thus why I went with the name Tim, he was my Tiny Tim. So tiny that he fit in one hand, and my special friend had some missing toes, and some back legs which weren’t perfect, but he was my little ginger buddy.

I remember I had a photo shoot the day Sharlie brought him over, she told me he was in need of some TLC and knew compared to a family with kids, I’d be one to take care of the little guy and make sure he got the care he needed.

He was tired, he was anxious, so he found a corner under my living room lamps and curled up into a small happy ball of fur. I went off to to a photo-shoot only to return to a cat perched on the couch saying “Where have you been?!” a behavior that continued for his entire life.

Tim was a good little cat, and he quickly grew into a big cat, with a tail that GREW bigger than he was, even the neighborhood kids loved his tail, even recently my uncle called Tim a “Cat Fox” as his tail was so big and poofy!

tim-headQuite the Facebook cat, many have watched the little guy grow from that little curious face above into the  full grown nap taking friend who has been through the crazy things of life, he was there when my job ended @ MLS, he was there after 5k’s and trips, he was always excited to see me and would follow me around for days after coming home to make sure I didn’t leave again.

Many have asked what happened, and I honestly don’t know, he went from earlier in the day tromping around in the backyard with mom to being weak, wobbly, and sore. He was sleeping a lot, and I came home to find him just breathing hard and not feeling to good – but as I have had cats in our family over the years figured “He’ll bounce back” as he’s been puny before and done fine, but as the day progressed he wasn’t doing too good, and after I woke up from nap, he cried a little as I came to see what was up and was petting him with mom, he took his last breath and was gone.

I’ve had my moments already, asked God why, been a little angry that this little guy would have to leave me so quickly, and yet I have a peace knowing that God put Tim in my life for a reason, to see me through some tough and lonely days, to be there and welcoming to me, to give me love – as my mom pointed out he was truly My Cat.

I’m sad. I can’t deny that, haven’t cried this much in ages, with my parents help we laid Tim to rest, said my goodbyes, Daisy came over to sit with me and hear stories, and just hold my hand as I cried. I’ve looked at a lot of old photos, since that  day in May over a year ago, when a little ginger man entered my life and found a spot where he could stay and be a friend that was always there when I came home, now He’s up in heaven once again waiting for me to come home.

I miss you Tim.

Resting on my chest :)
Resting on my chest 🙂

Hello… My name is Inigo Montoya

Or so I probably would’ve told you yesterday! (Don’t worry, You didn’t kill my father , so prepare to live!) It has been a busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy week! I’ve been cleaning, packing, sorting, throwing away and trying to get things all ready to go – but forgetting things small things like rest, rest, and well rest. I even forgot to eat the other day – so a tad focused on things, which has helped create some pretty rough exhaustion!

But last night got some quality sleep! So good I overslept and missed morning prayer & devotional with Daisy! (DOH!) Don’t worry though I’ve done my morning bible time & prayed for her, but we’ll be doing devotional & prayer a little bit later today 🙂

Today though is a busy one, the kitchen will be… No matter what…. 100% done today, and the bathroom and Office. Still will have big furniture in all awaiting the move to in most cases Mom and Dad’s with me, but some items may make the move to Daisy’s to live there for the mean time – but should be able to make the Saturday key-turn-in!

Really been a deep cleaning process – not just a wipe down and throw in a box, but rather “Do I need this?” followed by “Can I sell this?” and in some cases the answer to both is no! So a LOT of tossing, I’ve gone through a lot of stuff and just got rid of many things!

So things are moving forward, prayers are appreciated for my energy level! Work to keep up with too – thankfully customers are AMAZING and being very patient and relaxed, but come Monday, that will change and have me kicking right back into work full time again during the day! (Okay okay maybe a BIG nap day Monday!) 😀 but things will balance out and come together for sure! Thanks for reading!

prepare to die.

Let’s get down to business….

For over 10 years I’ve owned my own business – maybe not the most successful in terms of dollars and cents, but I love it! I’ve had days I’ve not been a fan, and had stress from it, but in the end over the last decade it has changed and evolved into what it is now, something a bit more manageable!

Me and My Big Brother Ron (We are so cool!)
Me and My Big Brother Ron (We are so cool!)

I remember back in 1997-1998 working Modern Networks with my brother (okay so I was the tag-along to what big brother was doing!) it was fun! We had some folks we worked on their websites using a re-seller hosting platform and it was fun, I remember still using it years later as I split off and was doing my own thing for friends, helping host band websites, local ministry’s and such – and then joined a company bringing my customers and a slew of my own websites called Mass Communications – which was fun too as I got to work with friends like Dan, Adam, Tom, and My Brother as well! It was going well but took some snags and too just didn’t work as a long-term fit, but thus Thrust Networks was born.

The Business!Within a year of starting Thrust Networks a lot of changes were on-going – had outages, stress, a PG&E Gas Main rupture behind the building, many many many many many many many *breath* many many many nights without sleep or little sleep – had a break-in (or at least a window shattered by a rock) – but it was quite the first year of business – but then I began moving customers from our little rack shown here to datacenters outside of Bakersfield, as we were pushing the limits of a T1 line, a growing customer base between two companies, and there wasn’t room to keep it all local anymore, we’d out grown our local ability (well affordably).

As things moved forward outside of the local area, I began to see more and more needs out in the Christian Community, sites I was a fan of getting hit with overages/outages – needed to do something and thus FlockHosting was born to offer the Christian Community a safe and affordable option for hosting.

And things have been going since! Now over a decade later I’m still working on things! Thrust Networks is actually getting a site coded right now as I haven’t actually had a active website for Thrust Networks for nearly 8 years – FlockHosting is getting some TLC as we enter the second half of the year, and its all coming together nicely!

I am excited about what God can do with this business, what he can make happen and how he can support me and one day a family, it’s not perfect right now and is in a BIG growing stage, but like anything that grows it must be prepared for the growth to come, so big cleanup of servers, big change up of software/configurations – a lot of work is to come! Can’t wait to see what will happen over the next decade, but too looking around for options too for a side job maybe even part time to balance out the budget, pay down debt faster, and just get things smoother and smoother sailing!

For now though my business is doing its job, and giving me a place to live, but I want to see it flourish and grow and become even more, that one day it will do even more and more for more and more people, I’m blessed to serve – and hope to serve folks for many years to come.